Sabtu, Februari 28, 2009

A wedding

Hey there.. guess what I just found out today. Tomorrow is my cousin's wedding and I'm not invited. Yeay!

It's her second marriage and honestly, I'm not invited to any of her weddings. I come to her first wedding only cos my father forced me and my sister.

Isn't it lovely?

Well, she and her husband, my uncle and my aunt can come to my wedding anytime. Just dont wait till the invitation to come knocking on your door. =)

Jumat, Februari 27, 2009

Money. Money. Money.

Don't give me that--money doesn't matter as long as you have the love of your family, friends and God--look. I need the money because of their existence! Well, don't get me wrong but when I don't have any money, usually, I'm becoming this kind of cave-woman with no money to go out of the house and hang out with my friends. My family would have so little money, we could barely provide food in the table. Yes, it's that bad. It has reach to a point where I am so desperate, I would voluntarily work overtime in the office, even though apparently my boss think that he had captivated me in the office (which he did).

I need money. Because I don't have any. There. That's the truth.

When I don't have any money, I usually get cranky even if it's not my PMS period. I need to get more money so I could focus on other things than being stressed out cos my wallet is so empty you could hear the wind breeze in it.

But God love me more than I'm worth.

A friend of mine just told me how to get extra bucks (it's in USD, PEOPLE!! $_$) from the Internet. I thought it was something that's already common like AdSense where I have to click on the ad on some random website to get a couple of cent. It will take centuries to get a couple of Dollar so I just close my eyes and move on. And this friend of mine tell me that he could get 20-60 USD a month from doing surveys. It's a blessing in disguise I'm telling you. Alhamdulillah Allah showed me the way from various direction. It's just a matter of, am I willing enough to do it?

I have this problem where I would talk the talk and not walk the walk.

Yes, I am that type of person of NATO (No Action Talk Only). You probably already realised it and think that I'm somehow don't realised it either. Usually people don't realise their bad behavior. But I do. This behavior could cost me my friends. Thank God I don't like to promise people anything (even though I do that sometimes). It's common around people to realised their mistake but not really do anything about it. Their reaction if someone (a friend) mention it? Take it or leave it. Shove it down your throat or leave me alone! Yeah, something like that.

I realised my bad behavior and sometimes I'm proud of my fugly demeanor (you could shout "BOOOO" at me right now), but I do realised what impact of my behavior and what it would cost me in the future. A random self introspection. But what do I do about it?

Well, I would do it again... and feel bad about it.

But yet, I'm still doing it again, again, and again, till I had enough with myself and so is everyone else around me. It's just common, you know?

But this is serious. I need money, people!!!

Can someone help me and explain to me how this paypal and blog for money work?! Please? Anyone? *crying in self pity again*

Kamis, Februari 26, 2009

My Playlist

Okay, actually I don't want to play this game even though DT has tagged me in her blog. Simply because I think my playlist sucks. Nista, you know?! But since one of my daughter ask me to do it while she's doing the same thing on her blog, so I'll do it anyway. I'm so weak to refuse a direct request. It's cos I have such a gentle and kind heart. *vomit everywhere*

So here we go.

1. Put your iTunes, Windows Media Player, etc. on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.

The man/woman you will marry will be?
How Do I breathe - Mario
Umm.. someone that will take my breath away? I like it... Lol. Anyway, I didn't even realise I have this song.

What's your ambition in life?
Unbelievable - Craig David
What? So does this mean that my ambition is unbelievable? I don't get it. -_-
I don't even have an ambition in life. So maybe this mean that I don't believe/have to ambitions in life.

If you were the lead character in a TV show, what would you do?
Wanita Super - Nafa Urbach
I told you that I have a nista playlist. Lol! Okay, so I would be a super (or is it wonder?) woman in a TV show. Sounds cool. =D

What will people think of you at your funeral?
Denial - Sugababes
People would miss me so much, they would denied that I have past away to God's hand. Oooohhhh... So sweet. =D

What do you secretly dream will happen in the future?
Closer - Ne-Yo
I want to be closer to God, to my parents, sister and closer to have a new job. Wow, it match!

You would like to do ___ to your enemy.
Unwritten - Natasha Bedingfield
Okay... all of you that I would consider as enemies would not be written in my blog, my plurk, my cell, my RP. Unwritten right? =D

You think kids are...
Frozen - Madonna
Wow! I know I'm a cold person but... kids are frozen? Or is it that my heart is frozen to the existence of kids? So what happens if I would have kids one day? We'll see about that. Fufufu...

Why do your siblings hate/love you?
Tattoo - Jordin Sparks
That's weird. I don't have a tattoo. So my siblings don't hate me. They love me. =D

High school musical is?
Numb-Encore - Linkin Park/Jay Z
I've become numb to High school musical and will NOT ask for encore. Lol!

What makes you mad?
Breakaway - Kelly Clarkson
So I will be mad if you would breakaway from me and went away without telling me in advance or at least say a proper good bye. And that's that! *mad*

What catastrophic thing will happen in your future?
I'm Done - The Pussycat Dolls
Actually this song is a ballad song from The Pussycat Dolls. I don't even realise that they sang ballads. Well, the catastrophic thing is when I said : I'm done. I will not care anymore. Good bye and good luck. Shoot!

You think your parents are:
Radar - Britney Spears
I think my parents have the most amazing radar. They would know where I am and what I'm doing ALL the time. I can't escape. Cos they have super-sensitive-radars!

What cheers you up?
Love Like This - Natasha Bedingfield
Love me like this and I would cheer up in no time. =)

How is your day going?
Glorious - Natalie Imbruglia
Wow. I think I just had a glorious day. =D

You invented something. What is the advertising slogan?
Someone Like Me - Atomic Kitten
Of course. I'm pretty narcissistic, you know? Lol!

What is your worst enemy thinking about you right now?
No One - Alicia Keys
This means that he/she have no grudge over me cos no one hate me. =)
You know what? I'm starting to have dejavu with the moymoy palaboys right now. LOL!

What is the tagline of a movie all about your life?
One Step at A Time - Jordin Sparks
My fave song. I didn't make up the player, it's pure coincidence. *wink* Yea, I think I live my life one step at a time. =)

How will you die?
Miss Independent - Ne-Yo
I will die alone and independent. I guess this means I won't be married. :'(

What did you think when you met your best friend?
She's a Handsome Woman - Panic at The Disco
Yea, I think like that whenever I met my girlfriends since they're all powerful and tomboy (kinda). I'm the only one that would be consider to be feminine between them. Lol.

What is your future spouse going to think about while you get married?
Bleed it Out - Linkin Park
He'll think that I'm still a virgin (which I am!). =D

What will someone say about you at your funeral?
4 Minutes - Madonna/Justin Timberlake
"She's the best. She's wonderful, caring, loving, affectionate to others... for the first 4 minute,"

What is your motto in life?
Home - Daughtry
Yup. Home sweet home is my motto. =D

What is your fortune in the fortune cookie?
Senyumanmu - Letto
I would be very fortune if I would show my smile to everyone, everyday, for the rest of my life. =)

What is written in the next love letter you receive?
Transparent and Glasslike - Carpark North
Yea, I guess he would look at me that way since I have nothing to hide and always say everything that pops up in my head.

How do you greet other people?
Say Goodbye - Chris Brown
LOL! It's gonna be like this : "Hi, nice to meet you. Oops, I have to go. Bubye."

Okay, so that was my random ranting, I guess I would go and see what my daughter put on her blog. Bye! (since I greet by saying Goodbye, apparently. Lol.)


Remember as I was saying to just don't watch TV and to turn it off? Well, I guess the similar things are not only happening in Indonesia. It's also happening in Canada. The fake soap opera, I mean. Well, it's not likely to be called soap opera cos the producers made it to be a comedy. Sitcom perhaps. Yea, it's quite funny. I laughed at the ignorance of muslims and reflect it to the condition in my own country--which of course--are not the same. Indonesia have the largest population of muslims but not half of them is practicing. Including myself. But of course, let us not be judgmental since it's not our job to do so. It's Allah's (SWT) job. =D

Well, at least I've come to my senses and trying to be a good person, a good muslimah, a good daughter, a good sister and a good friend. And I'm doing all that--surprisingly--not to pleased anyone or to desperately trying to make people like me. I'm doing it because I want to and I found that when I'm spreading a positive energy, people would be drawn to me automatically. Unfortunately, I'm really just basically not a nice person (lol) so even though I'm trying hard to become a good person, I'm not necessarily becoming a nice person. Lol! Well, it's just because I have my own thing, my own space and my own mind. And if I want to keep a peace of mind, I will have to take care my own things first. Lol. -trying to make up excuses, as always-

Like what I was saying, in Canada there's a show called the "Little mosque on the prairie". I was so happy when I discovered it and I thought : Wow! A real genuine Muslim show. And its in a language that I understand (a bit). The stories is about life as a muslim community in the middle of the western community. How they have to secretly transform a warehouse to be an office and a mosque. At first I was in a "hooo... cool! Aaahhh... Hooo.. Lol!" (it's supposed to be funny. It's a sitcom!). I found it on this muslim website that is trying to duplicate myspace, friendster, youtube, facebook and a lot of network social website out there.

It was all funny, amusing, entertaining and (surprisingly) educating for me when I was watching the episodes. It's already on their third season since it started 2 years ago (Alhamdulillah for Internet). As I was started watching from the first episode to 4th episode, it was no probs at all. I loved it and I think it's great. Until I noticed that on episode 4 the story is about a new convert trying to be a good muslim (aside from his views that seems like a fanatic in western point of view) but everyone sees him to be a fanatic and annoying. Picture this : a new convert, just declare Islam as his new religion and instead of teaching him about Islam and the true content of Islam they were simply walking away and do their own business. Even the Imam of the mosque. He was catching up to a movie theater with a priest! A movie with a priest! Not to guide the new convert. WTF?!

That's when I started to swear during the entire episode. This particular episode really gets to my head. =(

And when this new convert say Allahu Akbar (Allah Maha Besar) he can't say it out loud and with enthusiasm too. The Imam actually stop him from doing that in a mosque!! (another WTF?!) When he said that he wants to eat halal food, I just realized that Fatima that own a diner doesn't even provide halal food. And they would tell him to go away instead of providing him some pumpkin pie that had no meat on it and some coffee where he won't be complaining about halal foods. And when he said that he wants to memorized the Qur'an there's a message that is saying "too much" "it's what fanatic does" "don't be so religious" I was like : woot?! A man, a new convert trying to be a good muslim and they were trying to get rid of this poor guy (which often say stuff like a future terrorist but when you think about it... who the heck on earth would talk like that?! These people that make it has gone wacko!). And how they are trying to shoosh this person away? By showing him a bad muslim side. The men would wear silk, show that they eat and drink haram stuff, the women would wear embarrassing outfit and one women even wear a wig (which has no different than showing your real hair, btw. Helllooooo??!) They turn on the music and partying. To get rid of the new convert! Like what Baba Ali would say : JOKE!!

It's a sitcom, I know. Why am I not laughing?

In the end, the convert leave Islam and becoming a christian. And they're okay with it and kinda relieved cos they wouldn't have to deal with him again and now he's becoming christian and the priest problem. WTF?! In the same episode, when the wife was trying to become a better muslim since she is a convert by trying to do the 5 time a day prayer, she was laughed by her daughter and husband! (again, another WTF?!) And when she prays, she doesn't take the wudhu first, she would just jump to the prayer mat (pink!) that her husband gave her, put on a scarf (she doesn't wear a hijab while her daughter wears it) and pray. Again, let us all choir : WTF?! She prays five times a day or 10 time a day? Why is she's praying on 14.30? It's not dhuhur and it's most likely not ashar. She prays in her boss office (stupid producers) and was like tired and not sleeping properly cos she have to pray all the time. Do you get the picture? The boss and the husband encourage her to stop praying all the time and she did stop and went to bingo (read it in a sarcastic kind of way) in a church.

I know the movie is made by majority of non-muslim and even the cast is non-muslim. The only muslim in the movie is the Imam and he doesn't even seem to be practicing Islam in the real life (wallahu alam). Just like the so-called-muslim-theme-TV-programs in Indonesia. Surprise?

I don't know if I would still be watching this show but again : Let's just turn off the TV, shall we?

Selasa, Februari 24, 2009

Film India tanpa joget?

Indian movies without dancing

Love stories without sex scene

Reality right in your face.

I highly recommend all of you to watch this movie.


What kind of a man are you if you don't FLUSH?!

Please understand that I can't just see yellow urinate in the toilet everytime I walked into every bathrooms in this office! I had enough having to flush other people urine, FYI. Such ignorant! There's women here that also use the bathrooms and we usually would clinch in disgust seeing other peoples urine still there. And it's not only in this office. Nearly every office I've been (working or just visiting) have urine in the toilet! What's up with that?! Why are guys so not clean? I mean of course I understand that as a man, you don't have to use as much water as we women do when we pee, but have a little consideration to the people that is waiting in line to use the toilet! They would have to flush your urine! Aren't you even a little embarrased by that?

And please don't make me started with that awful cigarette smoke flying in the air that would be recognize by me as a man just pup there. Why do you (men) always smoke when you're doing it? It's riddicolous. Of course you'll flush and the smell won't stay like when you pee and left your urine there but the smoke smell stays! It really a bothersome to enter a bathroom and close the door with that awful smell all over you.

Flush! You Men! Be clean!


This world is getting CRAZY!

CRAZY I'm telling you..

I need to get a new job...

God help me!!

Senin, Februari 23, 2009

Just don't!

I have learn the secret of becoming a good muslimah... *sfx : wind blowing*

Just don't turn on the TV.

I'm sure many of you know the content of our local channels in Indonesia. Useless soap opera, music programs, variety show (including not-so-reality-show) and A LOT of infotainment (gossip) news. There's not a lot of useful things in the TV except if we turned the channel to a couple of my favorite channel like MetroTv that only present news and some import entertainment programs like Oprah (love it!), Nanny 911 (I've always watch it just in case I have a couple of future disaster in my future family), Rachael Ray Show (you know, the cooking program. She's cute. Love her. And I don't cook. =D), etc. Well, basicly I would just turn the TV off most of the time.

Back in the days, I hated TV with all my heart as I was falling in love with TV most of my life. I'm pretty sure that damn TV made me think like I am back then. I grew up with the TV on all the time. My dad would just turn the TV off only when it's homework time. Other than that, than the TV is all ours. Unless he wants to watch TV but it's pretty rare occasion. Right, moving on. Why did I hated TV so much when I was falling in love with the TV most of my 25 years life? It's because the program just got lower and lower and lower to reach rock bottom.

In Indonesia, we as muslims, have the most amount of people in the population. 90%! So we basicly (the muslim family) would watch TV together and the people behind the TV programs like producers and stuff would make a program that would suit our needs. But in the absolutely wrong way. When the mystical thingy when out and very popular with high rating, the producers will make a program that would connect mystical things with Islam. Like an exorsism program with people wearing Islamic clothing and locking jinn in a bottle. What kind of crap is that?! And the Islamic program just got worst with this new soap opera that publicized hijab. It first started okay but as the rating grow higher and the episodes got longer, the story and the basic Islam rules are getting further away from reality and the truth. This people are actually teaching the people lies about Islam or maybe just not the whole truth or the reason behind all that like the soap opera (sinetron) about poligami and stuff.

The role lady would cry and be tortured by the antagonist role. It's like Islam is being making fun of by this really crappy soap opera. And the cast are not even muslims! Such crap! It's misguiding people, teaching them the wrong thing, and the eff cast are not even muslims or actually wear a hijab in reality!

The news! Except for the news in MetroTv, the newscaster would say the news in a very unedicational ways that make me want to just turn off the TV and go straight to bed. Better to read the news in the paper. And what is it with the popular ustadz to go say wisdom words after a mystical/bloody/unrealistic FTV?!

Let's just all agree that aside from watching DVD, we'll just turn off the TV. It saves energy. :D


I got this from a blot that I stalked. And as I was reading it, I was like going "Ooohh..., Uuuhh..., Aaaahh...., Hmmm...," and all that when I read this line :

Muslim women are supposed to behave better than the average woman, who has to be beautiful for all the men around her all the time, who are trapped behind their looks and only judge themselves to be worthy if half the men they know are in love with them. A wise dude once said, "Don’t start the mower unless you intend to cut the grass". If you don’t want a guy’s advances, then don’t do anything to earn them. There’s no point in throwing yourself all over guys and trying to seduce half the world. You really only want to marry one guy, and you want to spend the rest of your life with him, and chances are he isn’t going to be some dork you fluttered your eyelashes at in high school.

I feel like I was hit by a bazooka. Right in the gut!

Ha. Ha. Ha.

Why do I just read this NOW?! *crying in self pity*

Sabtu, Februari 21, 2009

[Oshin] Omedetou Gozaimasu Neechan~

Happy Birthday to you...
You live in a Zoo..
You look like a monkey...
And you smell like...
One too...

That is the song I sing to her when I call her in the midnight.

I knew her since 22 years ago.
She's a quite person not a talkative like me. If you want her to talk, just give her time to share and woalah she will talk more :D
She's my inspiration, my life and my love.
I want to thank her for everything.
She always loan me a money that I never giving back :P
She always talk to me, listen to me, love me without asking anything.
She always be there for me.
She is my rubbish can.
When we are still kid, I always like to take her thing-even the new one-and she always being a great sister by giving to me. So we never fight about my egoistic >:)
But that's not only the reasons for being a wonderful sister.
I Love her because she's ;

Reni Handayani Mirza Putri

And I want to say ;

May Allah always protect u, me, us, and our family from all the bad thing.
May Allah always give u, me, us, and our family health.
May Allah always give u, me, us, and our family protection.
May Allah always give u, me, us, and our family dreams.
And may u, us, and our family thankful for all of that.


Jumat, Februari 20, 2009


Hei people. I know it's not midnight, so officially my birthday is still today. I don't know, I just like blogging, I could blog twice or three times a day depending on how busy I am that day. Don't worry I'm not this freak all the time. It only comes recently because I've given up chat via Yahoo Messenger if it's not important or maybe only use it at the end of the day when I feel like it, a few forums that really take most of my time in one day but I still can't get rid of facebook especially coz they've invaded my email. I could get dozens of emails and they're all from facebook! Damn you! I have to change my email address when my internet connection is normal again coz right now it's just soooo slooow it starting to frustrate me. =_=

Uhm, yeah, I want to thanks all the people that goes to the trouble of wishing me a happy birthday from every corner. Especially at my facebook. My facebook wall is full with best wishes from my friends. Lol. Thank you sooo much. And I really thanks Miss Twizted--who's blog I follow--which has given me my birthday present in her blog and Rifa, a friend of mine, also had written about me at her blog. Huge thanks *and a huge hug too* from me to both of you for sharing so much love to a complete stranger like me. Lol. Thank you!

I got numerous phone calls and text message from my friends and my sister (of course), a hug from my mom and a lot of birthday wishes from the blog comments that I received and in my oggix shout box too. =) Really make me feel all warm and mushy inside. Lol. And of course the numerous message at facebook and emails. I even got a birthday wishes from the forum's that I follow. Lol. It's quite funny seeing on top of my facebook wall there's an announcement from facebook saying happy birthday for me. Check it out when you're having your birthday y'all. Lol.

But it's not all pretty and beautiful day. It's currently 8.19 PM as I'm writing this at my home (finally) and through the entire day my mind just keep on wrestling with some stupid thought and the realization that I haven't done my job properly. I mean, I'm not as diligent as I was to be. I got sick and tired of my job desk and I'm starting to feel allergic with numbers. I'm not kidding! If I see another number I'll go berserk! &#^%#*@*%$# (just pretend it's a curse) I'm questioning if my income is halal (at my current division) and will I still be doing this job in a few month ahead when I am already a full time worker at my office. I could ask to be place at another division and I don't see any reason to not do that.

I got cold shoulder from my boss this afternoon when I was leaving the office to go home. He give me this silent treatment and I got scared if he would lay me off from my current division. I mean, I know I wouldn't get fired or something serious like that but I hate to get this very scary treatment from my very generous boss of mine. He usually talks a lot and I always like, 'Ugh, give me a break and talk to someone else, Sir'. But if he doesn't even bother to talk to me, even just a little, I know that there's something really serious is in his head right now and I think it's a pretty big deal. I just hope it doesn't include me. :'( Because even though I want to leave this division I don't want to leave it with a bad name.

I know I haven't work my best and I lost control of time (when I blog or do blog walking it usually at office hour coz I use mainly my office Internet connection) but I will try the best that I can in the future--at least until I'm taken as a steady worker at this place and move to another division. Even my boss know that I can't stay in this division. It's just not working for me. But my work is degrading to the lowest level. I don't have the power to control my time. It's 24 hours a day but it felt like time goes by in a flash, especially when I'm playing around with the internet (like I can do anything else other than that. Lol.).

My other issue that I'm trying to deal with is my praying time. I know as Muslims we are obligated to pray five times a day and I really working on that. I'm trying my best to fulfill my praying time but the problem is... I like to delay my praying time 'till the last minute! Like, it's dhuhur time and I'm watching the clock and it's still be 12.30. I usually just ignore the clock and keep doing whatever it is I'm doing at the time. When I check the time again, it's already 14.00!!! OMG! Astaghfirullah. Most of the time I would run to the musholla and pray than run to the canteen to get something to eat coz I usually would delay my lunch time 'till last minute also. Sometimes I would look at the clock and it's already past dhuhur. =_=

I mean, aside from my lack of time discipline on my praying time, it's also very unhealthy! What the hell is wrong with me?! I easily get addicted with something that caught my attention. This time it's the Internet, last time was TV (curse you TV!!!), if I gave up the Internet, what's next? There will always be something that I'm addicted at. Until I can control and balance my life properly, there will always be something to be addicted at. My obsessive behavior at something/someone really need to be control. I'm a big girl for God sake.

Ugh. Help?

Happy Birthday

Yes. Happy Birthday! To me! Yeay! It's my 25 birthday. Yes, okay, I admit it. It's my 25 birthday. You could notice it from my blog (of course, I wrote it here), my facebook, my friendster or from the forum's that I followed. I'm sooo happy and over excited about my birthday mainly because I can't believe so many people would care about my birthday! >.<

Last year was my 24 birthday. I got so many people saying happy birthday to me too just like what I'm experiencing right now. I don't remember what it felt like last year concerning that I am a future Alzheimer patient. Lol. But I do trying to capture what I feel right now. This feeling of overwhelming coz the person that I hope would remember my birthday (my friends and family) actually do remember my birthday! And a person that is very least expected turns out to be the first person that would say happy birthday to me. He's genuinely nice. Thanx Angga. :)

So I got a couple IM from Yahoo Messenger (which I don't go online intentionally because I'm waiting for my birthday to come at exactly 12 AM. I even don't realize it until Angga showed up out of the blue and say happy birthday) only from Angga and Miss Ussi but since I like those two a lot I have no problem with that. Of course I have to let Miss Ussi know it's my birthday coz she doesn't have any contact with me in any forum, friendster, facebook or myspace (do I have any? I can't remember. Lol.) except for my blog and Yahoo Messenger. But after that I got a few phone calls from my friends (Mamanx and Rifa, thank you so much you guys...), my sister (love you sist) and last but not least is from my 'son' (Thanx Bung). I was waiting for him to give an IM thinking that Miss Ussi that also is chatting with him already told him that it was my birthday but instead he called me. Aaaahhh... so sweet. Especially remembering that we both now have the same GSM operator. Lol.

Oke! For all of you that haven't called, text, leave me any notes at all saying a happy birthday for me, I'll be waiting. =)

And I want a birthday present. Inspired by my gift to my oldest sister, I want each and everyone of you... (Yes you! Reading my blog. Lol.) to write me something, anything, that is dedicated as my birthday present. It could be in your blog or if you don't have a blog that it could be in your facebook note (Don't say you don't have a facebook. Everyone have a facebook) and send it to me. =)

It's not that hard right? Please? :)

Oh, and I don't take my age lightly. I know in my age, people would push me and push and push until I'm press in the corner about marriage, having kids, making my parents happy and blah blah blah and so on. Yes, I do realize that without having anyone shoving it to me. Thank you. But I haven't found anyone or even know how to meet anyone or probably ready for anyone in particular right know. Right know I'm just chillin' and trying to be more religious and self conscious about myself and my religion. I am aware that in one's birthday, one do not get more age, one will just have less time to spend in this world. One more year fly by without any meaning. Hhhh~

I have to pray for my years to come and thankful for my years that passed. And I need to sleep to. Thank you everyone that said happy birthday to me. :)


Kamis, Februari 19, 2009


Yes, if you notice, there IS something new in my life (well, at least my blog). A new layout. Huahuahua.. When everyone else change their blog layout with something glam and cool, I just put the standard template that's coming from blogspot. Why? Simple. Coz I hate having to resize every picture that I want to put at the previous layout. Besides, I can't take the font. I hate that font. But this one's pretty much my taste of font. :D

I like a basic color for the background of my blog. Either it's black or white. I can take grey or light blue but I can't except any other color than that. My eyes is quite delicate reminiscing that it's already minus 6 (EACH). No such update going through my head right now coz I'm currently working on my never-ending-annual-report.

Oh! Just remember something. I finally put links for all my IndoHogwarts friends although I don't come there anymore coz I'm busy and all, but there you go. You don't have to say : "Link me, please." I already did. Lol. I took the link from another blog. I didn't get everyone's yet coz new people keep coming to IH but I'll catch up when I have the time. And btw, I have a stalker! Xixixi. From Qatar! Oh, I'm so happy that someone from outside my country want to read my blog although I still use Bahasa Indonesia as my primary language. And Miss KakChik from Malaysia said that she wants to be my friend. *smile*

I'm so happy if the people the blogs that I stalk would come and visit my blog even though their blog is in English and mine is kinda a wreck coz it's mix with Indonesia. Lol.

My head is spinning around and I haven't eat lunch yet. I still have a pile of work to do but I wanna go blog walking... wanna, wanna, wanna... Oh, read my whining, you could almost hear it. Lol.

Something New

Yes, I do need something new in my dull life. So I've decided to get rid of everything in my life that make me feel unhappy and trade it with a new habit. You know when people think of something and they say it than they do it several times in a row, it becomes a habit. Some scientist said that it took 21 days for something to become a habit. Well, I'm trying to be more religious as you may already notice from my recent entry. Lol.

Gw udah mulai pensiun dari YM, IH, bahkan DD. Gw mulai mengasingkan diri dari dunia net secara umum dan melewatkan waktu dengan blog walking ke blog-blog wanita-wanita muslim baik yang di Indonesia maupun di luar negeri (biarpun kebanyakan yang diluar negeri sih. Lol.). Gw bahkan ngerasa satu-satunya sarana berhubungan gw dengan kebanyakan temen-temen gw di dunia net cuma dari blog ini meskipun gw tetep buka-buka plurk dan facebook (dan itu pun karena facebook menuh-menuhin email gw doank. =_=).

I don't think it's a bad thing to start on focusing in my spiritual side. Toh, selama ini gw mengacuhkan sisi spiritual gw dan cuma ngeliat ke dunia aja. I don't feel bad if I miss one or two or three or four or five (lol) of the five times a day praying time. I don't feel concern if I'm so late at praying time. I don't have any worries if I don't know what's the meaning of the Qur'an or the meaning of the words that is coming out of my mouth whenever I pray. I don't even want to hear, acknowledge, or talk about death and the life after-wards.

The good thing about this is that I got a lot of answer of my outrages behavior, something to do on my spare time that is actually have benefit and not just to kill excess time (yes, I have too much time here). The point of all this is that I want to be a better person. I want to be a good friend to all my friends, I want to be a good daughter to my parents, to be concern with my after-life and to be more religious without having to preach all the time. Lol.

Terus terang aja alasan kenapa gw susah bergaul dengan anak-anak ikhwan dan akhwat di daerah lingkungan gw ini lebih karena... ya ampun mereka itu dikit-dikit ceramah mulu. =_= Belum lagi mereka tiap ngomong selalu nyelipin kata ukhti dan anta kepada sesama remaja mesjid yang rajin pengajian. Ummm.... yah bukannya itu jelek sih tapi gw jadi merasa tersisihkan karena gw menolak untuk mengikuti tradisi Arab biarpun emang perlu sih untuk belajar bahasa Arab biar kita ga kek beo yang cuma ngomong tapi ga ngerti artinya. Tapi yah.. biasa ber-elo/gw atau ber-aku/kamu tapi diajak ngomong ukhti/anta sama orang-orang yang cuma nyapa kek gitu ke orang-orang yang tertentu aja (kek eksklusif gitu) jadi gw merasa aneeeeeehhhh... =_=

Oh, well. At least I have something new to do.

Rabu, Februari 18, 2009

Hati yang mengeras

Ya Allah, gw baru aja baca tulisan dari salah satu blog yang gw kuntit (di stalk maksudnya) dan dia membicarakan tentang waktu dia di pengajian dan ada seorang ustadzah yang berceramah di pengajian itu. Harap diperhatikan bahwa gw baca ini bukan di blog lokal alias di blog berbahasa Inggris. Syukurlah rata-rata blog berbahasa Inggris yang gw ikutin bahasanya masih bisa diterima alias gw masih bisa ngerti-lah intinya.

So, di blognya, dia membicarakan tentang kalau hati seseorang mengeras. Yah, lumayan nancep di otak gw. I don't want to talk about the point but I think it really hit me hard. So yeah.. I just realize something important. Kinda make me sad... but not really. Hati gw memang mengeras sepertinya. :(

Ugh, jam 11 malem dan gw baru boleh tidur. :(
I'm sleepy.

A student and a teacher

An atheist professor of philosophy speaks to his class on the problem science has with God, The Almighty. He asks one of his new Muslim students to stand and.....

Professor: You are a Muslim, aren’t you, son?

Student: Yes, sir.

Prof: So you believe in God?

Student: Absolutely, sir.

Prof: Is God good?

Student: Sure.

Prof: Is God all-powerful?

Student: Yes.

Prof: My brother died of cancer even though he prayed to God to heal him. Most of us would attempt to help others who are ill. But God didn’t. How is this God good then? Hmm?

(Student is silent.)

Prof: You can’t answer, can you? Let’s start again, young fella. Is God good?

Student: Yes.

Prof: Is Satan good?

Student: No.

Prof: Where does Satan come from?

Student: From...God.. .

Prof: That’s right. Tell me son, is there evil in this world?

Student: Yes.

Prof: Evil is everywhere, isn’t it? And God did make everything. Correct?

Student: Yes.

Prof: So who created evil?

(Student does not answer.)

Prof: Is there sickness? Immorality? Hatred? Ugliness? All these terrible things exist in the world, don’t they?

Student: Yes, sir.

Prof: So, who created them?

(Student has no answer.)

Prof: Science says you have 5 senses you use to identify and observe the world around you. Tell me, son... Have you ever seen God?

Student: No, sir.

Prof: Tell us if you have ever heard your God?

Student: No, sir.

Prof: Have you ever felt your God, tasted your God, smelt your God? Have you ever had any sensory perception of God for that matter?

Student: No, sir. I’m afraid I haven’t.

Prof: Yet you still believe in Him?

Student: Yes.

Prof: According to empirical, testable, demonstrable protocol, science says your GOD doesn’t exist. What do you say to that, son?

Student: Nothing. I only have my faith.

Prof: Yes. Faith. And that is the problem science has.

Student: Professor, is there such a thing as heat?

Prof: Yes.

Student: And is there such a thing as cold?

Prof: Yes.

Student: No sir. There isn’t.

(The lecture theatre becomes very quiet with this turn of events.)

Student: Sir, you can have lots of heat, even more heat, superheat, mega heat, white heat, a little heat or no heat. But we don’t have anything called cold. We can hit 458 degrees below zero which is no heat, but we can’t go any further after that. There is no such thing as cold. Cold is only a word we use to describe the absence of heat. We cannot measure cold. Heat is energy. Cold is not the opposite of heat, sir, just the absence of it.

(There is pin-drop silence in the lecture theatre.)

Student: What about darkness, Professor? Is there such a thing as darkness?

Prof: Yes. What is night if there isn’t darkness?

Student: You’re wrong again, sir. Darkness is the absence of something. You can have low light, normal light, bright light, flashing light....But if you have no light constantly, you have nothing and it’s called darkness, isn’t it? In reality, darkness isn’t. If it were you would be able to make darkness darker, wouldn’t you?

Prof: So what is the point you are making, young man?

Student: Sir, my point is your philosophical premise is flawed.

Prof: Flawed? Can you explain how?

Student: Sir, you are working on the premise of duality. You argue there is life and then there is death, a good God and a bad God. You are viewing the concept of God as something finite, something we can measure. Sir, science can’t even explain a thought. It uses electricity and magnetism, but has never seen, much less fully understood either one. To view death as the opposite of life is to be ignorant of the fact that death cannot exist as a substantive thing. Death is not the opposite of life: just the absence of it. Now tell me, Professor. Do you teach your students that they evolved from a monkey?

Prof: If you are referring to the natural evolutionary process, yes, of course, I do.

Student: Have you ever observed evolution with your own eyes, sir?

(The Professor shakes his head with a smile, beginning to realize where the argument is going.)

Student: Since no one has ever observed the process of evolution at work and cannot even prove that this process is an on-going endeavour, are you not teaching your opinion, sir? Are you not a scientist but a preacher?

(The class is in uproar.)

Student: Is there anyone in the class who has ever seen the Professor’s brain?

(The class breaks out into laughter.)

Student: Is there anyone here who has ever heard the Professor’s brain, felt it, touched or smelt it?..... No one appears to have done so. So, according to the established rules of empirical, stable, demonstrable protocol, science says that you have no brain, sir. With all due respect, sir, how do we then trust your lectures, sir?

(The room is silent. The professor stares at the student, his face unfathomable.)

Prof: I guess you’ll have to take them on faith, son.

Student: That is it sir… The link between man & god is FAITH. That is all that keeps things moving & alive.

By Ali Yahaya

Copied from Miss KakChik in Malaysia. :)

Selasa, Februari 17, 2009


Obsessive-compulsive disorder (OCD) is a mental disorder most commonly characterized by intrusive, repetitive thoughts resulting in compulsive behaviors and mental acts that the person feels driven to perform, according to rules that must be applied rigidly, aimed at preventing some imagined dreaded event; however, these behaviors or mental acts are not connected to the imagined dreaded event.

The phrase "obsessive-compulsive" has become part of the English lexicon, and is often used in an informal or caricatured manner to describe someone who is meticulous, perfectionistic, absorbed in a cause, or otherwise fixated on something or someone.[3] Although these signs are often present in OCD, a person who exhibits them does not necessarily have OCD, and may instead have obsessive-compulsive personality disorder (OCPD) or some other condition.

Honey and Cinnamon

So I read this in Empress Anisa from Thoughts from the desk of the Barefoot Empress blog and I just can't help it to copied it here so I would remember the proper dose of honey and cinnamon. I hope this would help my friends that have the similar problems. Remember, natural resources is the best. Allah SWT didn't invented Aspirin. God invented Willow, some kind of plants that contains salicylic acid which is the component of most medicine that we know today, including Aspirin.

It is found that a mixture of honey and cinnamon cures most diseases. Honey is produced in most of the countries of the world. Scientists of today also accept honey as a 'Ram Ban' (very effective) medicine for all kinds of diseases. Honey can be used without any side effects for any kind of diseases.

Today's science says that even though honey is sweet, if taken in the right dosage as a medicine, it does not harm diabetic patients... Weekly World News, a magazine in Canada, on its issue dated 17 January 1995 has given the following list of diseases that can be cured by honey and cinnamon as researched by western scientists:

Make a paste of honey and cinnamon powder, apply on bread, instead of jelly and jam, and eat it regularly for breakfast. It reduces the cholesterol in the arteries and saves the patient from heart attack. Also, those who have already had an attack, if they do this process daily they are kept miles away from the next attack. Regular use of the above process relieves loss of breath and strengthens the heart beat. In America and Canada, various nursing homes have treated patients successfully and have found that as you age, the arteries and veins lose their flexibility and get clogged... honey and cinnamon revitalize the arteries and veins.

Arthritis patients may take daily, morning, and night, one cup of hot water with two spoons of honey and one small teaspoon of cinnamon powder. If taken regularly even chronic arthritis can be cured.. In a recent research conducted at the Copenhagen University, it was found that when the doctors treated their patients with a mixture of one tablespoon honey and half teaspoon cinnamon powder before breakfast, they found that within a week, out of the 200 people so treated, practically 73 patients were totally relieved of pain, and within a month, mostly all the patients who could not walk or move around because of arthritis started walking without pain.

Take two tablespoons of cinnamon powder and one teaspoon of honey in a glass of lukewarm water and drink it. It destroys the germs in the bladder.

Make a paste of one teaspoon of cinnamon powder and five teaspoons of honey and apply on the aching tooth. This may be applied three times a day until the tooth stops aching.

Two tablespoons of honey and three teaspoons of cinnamon powder mixed in 16 ounces of tea water, given to a cholesterol patient were found to reduce the level of cholesterol in the blood by 10 percent within two hours. As mentioned for arthritic patients, if taken three times a day, any chronic cholesterol is cured. According to information received in the said journal, pure honey taken with food daily relieves complaints of cholesterol. By the way, if you're taking cholesterol medicine, STOP! They all contain STATIN which weaken your muscles...including YOUR HEART and none has been shown to stop heart attacks or strokes!!!!

Those suffering from common or severe colds should take one tablespoon lukewarm honey with 1/4 spoon cinnamon powder daily for three days. This process will cure most chronic cough, cold, and clear the sinuses.

Honey taken with cinnamon powder cures stomach ache and also clears stomach ulcers from the root.

According to the studies done in India and Japan , it is revealed that if honey is taken with cinnamon powder the stomach is relieved of gas.

Daily use of honey and cinnamon powder strengthens the immune system and protects the body from bacterial and viral attacks. Scientists have found that honey has various vitamins and iron in large amounts. Constant Use of honey strengthens the white blood corpuscles to fight bacterial and viral diseases.

Cinnamon powder sprinkled on two tablespoons of honey taken before food relieves acidity and digests the heaviest of meals.

A scientist in Spain has proved that honey contains a natural ingredient which kills the influenza germs and Saves the patient from flu.

Tea made with honey and cinnamon powder, when taken regularly, arrests the ravages of old age. Take four spoons of honey, one spoon of cinnamon powder and three cups of water and boil to make like tea. Drink 1/4 cup, three to four times a day. It keeps the skin fresh and soft and arrests old age. Life spans also increases and even a 100 year old, starts performing the chores of a 20-year-old.

Three tablespoons of honey and one teaspoon of cinnamon powder paste. Apply this paste on the pimples before sleeping and wash it next morning with warm water. If done daily for two weeks, it removes pimples from the root.

Applying honey and cinnamon powder in equal parts on the affected parts, cures eczema, ringworm and all types of skin infections.

Daily in the morning one half hour before breakfast on an empty stomach and at night before sleeping, drink honey and cinnamon powder boiled in one cup of water. If taken regularly, it reduces the weight of even the most obese person. Also, drinking this mixture regularly does not allow the fat to accumulate in the body even though the person may eat a high calorie diet.

Recent research in Japan and Australia has revealed that advanced cancer of the stomach and bones have been cured successfully. Patients suffering from these kinds of cancer should daily take one tablespoon of honey with one teaspoon of cinnamon powder for one month three times a day.

Recent studies have shown that the sugar content of honey is more helpful rather than being detrimental to the strength of the body. Senior citizens, who take honey and cinnamon powder in equal parts, are more alert and flexible. Dr. Milton, who has done research, says that a half tablespoon of honey taken in a glass of water and sprinkled with cinnamon powder, taken daily after brushing and in the afternoon at about 3:00 p.m. when the vitality of the body starts to decrease, increases the vitality of the body within a week.

People of South America, first thing in the morning, gargle with one teaspoon of honey and cinnamon powder mixed in hot water, so their breath stays fresh throughout the day.

Daily morning and night honey and cinnamon powder, taken in equal parts restore hearing.

Uff... I'll take the Pimple formula. Lol.


Dari Abu Hurairah radhiallahu anhu, dari Nabi shalallahu alaihi wa salam, beliau bersabda:
''Barangsiapa yang beriman kepada Allah dan hari Akhir, maka hendaklah ia berkata-kata yang baik atau hendaklah ia diam.'' (HR Bukhari dan Muslim)
Orang yang beriman kepada Allah subhanahu wa ta'ala tentu dia takut kepada ancaman-Nya, mengharapkan pahala-Nya, bersungguh-sungguh melaksanakan perintah dan meninggalkan larangan-Nya. Yang terpenting dari semuanya itu ialah mengendalikan gerak-gerik seluruh anggota badannya karena kelak dia akan dimintai tanggung jawab atas perbuatan semua anggota badannya, sebagaimana tersebut pada firman Allah:

''Sesungguhnya pendengaran, penglihatan, dan hati, semuanya kelak pasti akan dimintai tanggung jawabnya'' (Al Isra' ayat 36)

Bahaya lisan itu sangat banyak, Rasulullah shalallahu alaihi wa salam juga bersabda:
''Bukankah manusia terjerumus ke dalam neraka karena tidak dapat mengendalikan lidahnya'' (HR Timridzi)

Dari Abu Hurairah radhiyallahu anhu, sesungguhnya Rasulullah Shallallahu ‘alaihi wa Sallam telah bersabda : “Barang siapa yang beriman kepada Allah dan hari akhirat, maka hendaklah ia berkata baik atau diam, barang siapa yang beriman kepada Allah dan hari akhirat, maka hendaklah ia memuliakan tetangga dan barang siapa yang beriman kepada Allah dan hari akhirat, maka hendaklah ia memuliakan tamunya”. [Bukhari no. 6018, Muslim no. 47]

Taken from a forum when I was searching for hadist that explain about the importance of proper language or just... silent.

Silent, shut up, be quiet, diam, tenang, apapun itu istilah yang digunakan untuk menggambarkan keadaan seorang manusia yang tidak berkata apapun. Bukan karena dia tidak mengerti atau tidak mau berpartisipasi atau pun karena dia tidak punya inisiatif untuk memulai pembicaraan tetapi karena dia memilih untuk diam.
"Mulutmu harimaumu"
Begitulah sebuah pepatah kuno di Indonesia. Your mouth is your tiger. It will scratch and hurt everyone who listen. Terus terang gw adalah orang yang sekali udah mood untuk membuka mulut dan ngomong, gw akan terus nyerocos tanpa henti. Memberikan cerita-cerita yang gw denger dari apa yang orang lain cerita ke gw (bukan cerita yang udah diwanti-wanti sama si pencerita untuk dirahasiakan) atau dari yang gw baca, gw tonton atau pendapat-pendapat gw yang bercokol di dalam kepala dan sulit untuk dikeluarkan kecuali di dalam blog gw ini (yang makin lama makin ga ada yang baca karena selalu berbahasa Inggris. Lol.).

Dari kecil gw ini termasuk anak yang pendiam dan sulit mengeluarkan pendapat. Mempunyai sepasang orang tua yang tidak mau mendengarkan pendapat anak dan selalu memandang gw seperti anak kecil balita yang baru belajar ngomong serta adik yang hiperaktif dari kecil sehingga menyita perhatian semua orang membuat gw ga bisa ngomong sama siapapun kecuali sama diri sendiri di dalam kepala. If only there were internet and blog back then.... Right, moving on. As I was saying, gw ngomong sama diri sendiri di dalam kepala tapi apa yang gw maksudkan di dalam kepala gw terasa lebih jernih dan dapat dimengerti oleh gw dibandingkan ketika gw mengucapkan maksud gw kepada orang lain. Ujung-ujungnya lawan bicara gw cuma bisa menatap gw sembari tersenyum-senyum saja while she/he is not listening. I know they're not listening!

Like I said before, people only interested in stories that concerning themselves and only about that very topic. If you want to be a good friend and wins a lot of heart, from this book I read, you have to master the art of listening. People would enjoy your company if you would listen to their stories and opinion coz... well, like I said before, people just love to talk about themselves and will always feel comfortable talking to people that would listen to their stories and their life.

Moving on now. Aside from my problems, I know in Islam, people are expected to watch their tongue and mouth as they speak. I know, but the reason why I kept my mouth still is only because I don't want to talk too much and show my shallowness and my stupidity coz I know when people talk too much they're only exposing themselves to the people they talk to. Do you know that from one sentence from two leader of great countries, there could be war or peace, depends on what they're saying to each other? Do you know that siblings and lovers could be a part and hate each other to death or getting even more closer than ever and love each other more because of what they say to each other?

Of course you already know that. You've experience it. Siapa sih yang belum pernah musuhan dan berantem sama orangtua/anaknya, saudaranya, temannya, sahabat terbaiknya, istri/suaminya, orang asing yang ditemuin di jalan hanya karena perkataan yang tidak dijaga? Lidahmu itu setajam silet *nada infotainment* bagi hati yang terluka atau selembut kain sutra bagi hati yang tersanjung. Ucapan yang keluar dari mulutmu itu sebegitu berbahanya, sampai-sampai Nabi Muhammad S.A.W berkata : "Berbicalah yang baik atau diam."

Gw sangat sadar diri kalau gw udah mood untuk ngoceh, istilah gw untuk berbicara tanpa henti, gw akan sering mengatakan hal-hal yang tidak berguna bagi gw dan orang lain yang mendengarkan atau malah hal-hal yang menyakitkan orang lain karena sense of humor gw yang cukup satir dan penuh sindiran, bisa juga gw mulai menceramahi orang-orang disekitar gw dengan cerita-cerita penuh sindiran atau emang pure ceramah nonstop ala motivator profesional. Lol. Yeah, itu cukup sering terjadi dan anehnya gw baru sadar klo gw itu sering banget jadi penceramah akhir-akhir ini aja padahal itu udah dari gw masih kecil.

Who needs my preaching anyway? Belum lagi kata-kata yang keluar dari mulut gw yang seringnya hanya berupa sindiran atau kata-kata tajam yang tidak diperhalus sedikitpun. Gw mengangkat topik ini setelah membaca di suatu tempat (gw lupa dimana) bahwa neneknya si seseorang itu ga pernah ngomong kecuali benar-benar perlu saja. Gw sendiri juga harus seperti itu. Kecuali kata-kata yang keluar dari mulut gw ini adalah kata-kata yang menyenangkan bagi orang lain atau berguna dan bermanfaat serta benar (terbukti kebenarannya) bukankah lebih baik gw diam?

Bagi mereka yang senang mengkritik orang lain (termasuk gw), you need to read this cool book that I read a couple of years back.

I loooveee this book. "How to win friends and Influence People." by Dale Carnegie. Di buku ini mengatakan bahwa cara terbaik untuk mengubah karakter orang-orang yang kita sayangi di sekitar kita ternyata *drum roll please* bukan dengan kritikan tapi sebaliknya dengan pujian dan dorongan untuk melakukan yang terbaik. Kita sering secara ga sadar mencari musuh dari teman-teman, saudara, orang terkasih kita dengan cara "mengkritik" mereka habis-habisan dan sering kali tanpa diminta. Gw sendiri sering melakukan ini pada teman-teman gw dan selalu setelah itu gw akan menyesal abis-abisan. Kenapa? Karena gw langsung teringat pada buku ini yang pernah gw baca beberapa tahun ke belakang dan masih gw inget sampai sekarang.

Kritik itu tidak berguna.

Paling tidak itu hasil dari pengalaman gw dan rupanya begitu pula pendapat Mr. Dale Carnegie. Gw sendiri selalu ngerasa kalau gw dikritik, maka gw akan langsung defensif dan membela diri atas semua tuduhan kritikan yang ditujukan ke gw dan bukannya sadar diri, gw akan malah menyalahkan si pengkritik yang sudah mau berbaik hati menunjukkan apa kesalahan karakter kita. Karena kita tidak bisa melihat diri kita sendiri dengan baik tanpa bantuan cermin, orang lain yang ada di sekitar kitalah yang paling bisa melihat diri kita dengan sangat baik. Mereka menilai kita berdasarkan karakter kita. Jarang ada orang yang bisa dengan objektif merasakan karakter mereka sendiri dan berusaha memperbaikinya dalam waktu bersamaan.

Sebaliknya, kalau lawan bicara gw itu (gw belajar ini dari bos gw, the best boss in the world) memuji kelebihan gw dan tidak banyak bicara atas kekurangan gw kecuali melakukannya dengan baik-baik dan tanpa nada menuduh, gw langsung sadar diri dan berusaha bersikap lebih baik untuk seterusnya cuma karena gw sadar kalau gw itu salah dan berterima kasih lawan bicara gw itu tidak membuat gw merasa buruk dan down karena kesalahan gw itu. Of course as a human being, gw akan memikirkan kesalahan gw itu, dampaknya pada orang lain dan eventually, try to fix it to make everyone else happy. Dampaknya sangat besar sebuah pujian itu ya?

Kata-kata manis setulus hati yang tidak ditujukan untuk menjilat, terkesan menyenangkan dan penuh perhatian pada lawan bicara kita, baik teman, saudara, suami/istri, orangtua/anak, akan terdengar indah di telinga anda maupun lawan bicara anda. Gw sendiri sedang berusaha untuk melakukan hal itu dan kalau gw ga bisa, than I would just bite my tounge and smile. Coz a smile speak a thousand language and a thousand words. Wish me luck guys. :)

Sorry guys, I know I have a snake tongue. I am so sorry to all the victims of my vicious tongue.


Situasi : Dua orang perempuan cantik memakai sepatu hak tinggi memasuki ruang tunggu gawat darurat sebuah rumah sakit. Salah satunya berjalan dengan keadaan pincang, sementara yang satunya lagi memapah temannya dengan sedikit kesulitan. Dicurigai si gadis pincang keseleo saat memakai sepatu stilettonya yang setinggi 11 cm itu.

Background : ruang tunggu UGD yang kelewat silau.

Petugas UGD laki-laki : Siapa yang sakit?
Kedua perempuan : (memandang si suster laki-laki dengan pandang penuh harap)
Petugas UGD laki-laki : (balas memandang kedua perempuan dengan tampang kebingungan karena silau dan memandangi keduanya bolak-balik)
Kedua perempuan : (mati-matian menarik perhatian si suster laki-laki)
Petugas UGD laki-laki : (karena kesilauan akhirnya dia memilih salah satu perempuan yang berwajah putih pucat).
Perempuan berkulit putih pucat sampai satu ruangan silau : (kebingungan diangkat ke kursi roda sambil menengok minta bantuan pada temannya yang sedang sakit)
Perempuan berkulit putih yang ga pucat : (panik melihat temannya diseret ke kursi roda oleh suster cowok sinting sementara dia yang lagi sakit dicuekin dan akhirnya cuma ketawa-ketawa pasrah lihat temannya diseret pergi)
Perempuan berkulit putih yang ga pucat : (senyum-senyum menggoda sama dokter super ganteng yang dicurigai Gay saking gantengnya)
Dokter super ganteng yang dicurigai Gay saking gantengnya : (membereskan bebatan di kaki si perempuan yang berkulit putih yang ga pucat itu sambil membalas senyum menggoda lalu meminta nomer telepon untuk keperluan perawatan lebih lanjut padahal dia udah tahu si perempuan yang berkulit putih yang ga pucat itu ga sakit apa-apa).

What the eff?? Iklan pemutih kulit telah melangkah ke level yang lebih tinggi lagi, Saudara-saudara. Mereka menyatakan bahwa para wanita berkulit kelewat putih, kusam, berjerawat, dll tidak layak mendapatkan perawatan kesehatan dan satu ruangan sama dokter super ganteng yang dicurigai Gay saking gantengnya.

Mari kita bersyukur kebanyakan perawat di Indonesia dan di dunia, adalah sesama perempuan. Biarpun mereka lebih nyinyir dan kurang helpful tapi paling tidak, ga akan ada diskriminasi model begituan. Paling ga di tahap pertama. Entah apa yang akan terjadi saat kita sudah berhadapan dengan seorang dokter ganteng. Mungkin kita akan dieliminasi di tahap akhir oleh si dokter dan tidak akan mendapatkan no hape si dokter ganteng dan dikasih obat yang rasanya pahit sementara para perempuan yang berkulit cerah sampai satu ruangan silau itu bisa tukeran no hape dan dikasih permen yang disamarkan jadi obat saking manisnya.

Keren banget ya sistem pengobatan rumah sakit di Iklan Produk Pemutih Kulit? Gw sampe eneg pengen muntah sambil nyari-nyari kacamata item saking mual dan silau liat iklan itu.

Minggu, Februari 15, 2009

Who's watching?

So I was sitting in my boss car, next to the driver's seat coz my boss is driving and I'm the only one who is riding in his car. His car is pretty comfy but I don't like to chit chat, usually. Coz I'm usually sleepy when I am in a car or a bus. I prefer to go to sleep until arrival but it's not polite to my boss who is kind enough to give me a ride and give me my paycheck. Lol. So we talked in the car and we usually talk about stuff that he like. I prefer to give comment or just listen. When I talk it sounded like I'm preaching. Lol. It's so rude to do that to your boss so based on experience best to just shut up and give small comments if he talk.

So we chit chat a little and found this very ironic and laughable subject. We talk about the government and central government finance (since I work in a local government office). We talked about the difference of a president salary and a BUMN director. The difference is sooo huge that its almost ridiculous. When we were talking about it, we're talking about the institution that will watch over those BUMN like KPK or BPK. It's an independent institution build by the government to watch over them. To watch if there would be any violation made by them.

So we talked about it, and I don't have to remind you all who live in Indonesia about how rotten our national institution is. I know. I work there. I'm part of their system whether I want it or not. I'm officially trap without any exit. Ok, let's not talk about it or it will only remind me of my sins that keep piling up.

Right, we were talking about BPK and KPK and we were like : If they're watching us (the government) who will be watching them? My boss said : Malaikat Jibril. I was like : WAKAKAKA (ROFL). Coz, as we do know, the people is not accountable enough to watch over the KPK or BPK if they are not form in some sort of LSM. So they will have some kind of law foundation and can move the people if they discovered anything suspicious. But who's insuring that the LSM is not the extension of the head BPK or KPK?

Well, my boss respons was : Malaikat Jibril.
Me : ROFL!

Who's watching the people that's watching?

Let us all pray that people still have the conscience to do the right thing. For themselves, for their faith and for their country. Amin.

Sabtu, Februari 14, 2009


As you could read from the tittle, you would know that I don't approve Valentine's day. Lol. Well, I just think this whole celebration thing is kinda ridiculous and over the edge. I mean, people would buy their couples flowers, chocolate, candies, dolls and all in PINK! It's like the PINK day or RED day. Breast cancer day! Lol. I wish. I mean if people would refer the Valentine day with breast cancer awareness, than I'm cool. I have no problem with that. But to celebrate love in one day a year called valentine's day? Are you stupid? Hellooo~ Aside from my disbelieve in what you so call love, if you look at the history of valentine's day, you would think twice also.

There's a lot of version that explain where do this Valentine's day started to be celebrated. Allow me to quote several version that I got from wikipedia.

The first representation of Saint Valentine appeared in the Nuremberg Chronicle, (1493); alongside the woodcut portrait of Valentine the text states that he was a Roman priest martyred during the reign of Claudius II, known as Claudius Gothicus. He was arrested and imprisoned upon being caught marrying Christian couples and otherwise aiding Christians who were at the time being persecuted by Claudius in Rome. Helping Christians at this time was considered a crime. Claudius took a liking to this prisoner -- until Valentinus tried to convert the Emperor -- whereupon this priest was condemned to death.

That's the familiar version that I read in some magazine. Here's another version of St. Valentine history.

English eighteenth-century antiquarians Alban Butler and Francis Douce, noting the obscurity of Saint Valentine's identity, suggested that Valentine's Day was created as an attempt to supersede the pagan holiday of Lupercalia. This idea has lately been contested by Professor Jack Oruch of the University of Kansas. Many of the current legends that characterise Saint Valentine were invented in the fourteenth century in England, notably by Geoffrey Chaucer and his circle, when the feast day of February 14 first became associated with romantic love.

See? There's no such kind of history's here mentioned anything about 'love'. Only the one above that say something about marrying the Christian and so he was beheaded because of it. That kind of bloody history and uncertain line of history really is interesting, right? I don't care. From my opinion, it's only the engineering of the merchant. Specially candies, chocolate, flowers, and everything that got to do with the color pink merchant. Do you know what the love symbol means? That love shape? It's your heart. Wait, let me show you the picture :

This is a love symbol. Looks cute, huh?

This is our heart organ. Feel familiar? It's been re-shape to a very cute love symbol as we know now. Some people may found this utterly cute and by giving out the love symbol means that you're giving out your heart to them. Well, I call this crap. Lol.

So this is me. I don't like crappy romantic things that is not realistic. Honestly, I think that 'love' which those teens keep saying to their couple is only a justification of what they're going to do with their couple that includes kissing, hugging, petting, free-sex-ing, and a lot of other -ing out there. Lol.

Look, I am as innocence as I am acclaiming. I have no reason to lie to anyone. So just believe what you want to believe. Not my problem. =)

Jumat, Februari 13, 2009

Happy Birthday

My sister is having her birthday today. No, not my little sister Natasha (or for some people might know her as K, her chara in IH). I'm talking about my older sister. My long lost sister. Lol. We are related by blood and maybe that's the only think we have in common.

I'm not sorry for talking out. She's now a part of a family she doesn't want and hanging loosely by a thin thread to a family she used to have. Me and my big mouth has made her unhappy maybe. God knows that open truth is better than the covered up truth. I hope I did the right thing although I doubt it 'till this very moment. I feel like I have taken away a lot of people happiness by my egoistic decision. Including my sisters and my mother. I don't know about my father but I think he feels the same way. My whole family is suffering from the truth even though it's been years.

Well anyway, I don't want to ruin a person's happiness over unstopping whining and all. So happy birthday, sist. It's your 27 birthday. I know coz the three of us are separate only by two years each. I've known that since I was a kid. You know, my mom always talked about you when we were still kids and always been talking about you ever since.

Here's a cake for you since I can't go out and celebrate your birthday. :'(
No money to go anywhere these days. Lol.
Have a great birthday, sist.
I wish you luck in everything in life.
Don't forget, now you have two families. Lol.

Oh! Almost forgot. Your birthday present. :)

al-Fâtiha - The Opening

1. In the name of God, Most Gracious, Most Merciful.
2. Praise be to God, the Cherisher and Sustainer of the world;
3. Most Gracious, Most Merciful;
4. Master of the Day of Judgment.
5. Thee do we worship, and Thine aid we seek.
6. Show us the straight way,
7. The way of those on whom Thou hast bestowed Thy Grace,
those whose (portion) is not wrath, and who go not astray.

P# 3 - Name -

Mau tau nama Korea mu?

Gini caranya:

Mine is : Kim Sang Neul

Caranya :1. Nama depan adalah angka terakhir pada tahun kelahiran kamu /Your first name is your last number of your year of birth: Contoh:1977 => 7 = Lee
0: Park
1: Kim
2: Shin
3: Choi
4: Song
5: Kang
6: Han
7: Lee
8: Sung
9: Jung

2. Nama tengah adalah bulan kelahiran kamu /Your Middle name is your month of birth: Contoh: Februari => 2 = Ji
1: Yong
2: Ji
3: Je
4: Hye
5: Dong
6: Sang
7: Ha
8: Hyo
9: Soo
10: Eun
11: Hyun
12: Rae

3. Nama belakang adalah tanggal kelahiran kamu /Your last name is your date of birth: Contoh: 23 = Ki
1: Hwa
2: Woo
3: Joon
4: Hee
5: Kyo
6: Kyung
7: Wook
8: Jin
9: Jae
10: Hoon
11: Ra
12: Bin
13: Sun
14: Ri
15: Soo
16: Rim
17: Ah
18: Ae
19: Neul
20: Mun
21: In
22: Mi
23: Ki
24: Sang
25: Byung
26: Seok
27: Gun
28: Yoo
29: Sup
30: Won
31: Sub


It's freakin AMAZING what you can find from a simple blog walking. I just discovered the funniest, coolest really over the edge blog with a little twist. Its the chickenstrip blog. LOL! So I discovered this blog when I was checking on if there's any new update from Miss Ayu (which is kinda useless coz she rarely touch her blog. Lol.) and I saw a comment on her blog which is pretty rare to find in my friends blog. I actually arrange my blog to accept comment but this template doesn't show it. Besides nobody would leave comments in my blog anyway. If you want, just leave the comment on the oggix shout box right next to the entries.

Oh, back to topic. Like what I was saying, I was checking on Miss Ayu blog and there was two comments there. I check it out and saw a cute guy there. I know that Ayu is surrounded with cute guys but I have no idea it was that much. Lol. Ok, so I check out his blog and it turn out to be a pretty cool blog. He's a commentator and talk about a lot of subject in a smart way. Humm.. Really cool. Lol. Well anyway, I'm not talking about him, I'm talking about this cool blog the chickenstrip blog heeee heeee.

A quote from Ikram's Blog:

With around 400 visitors per day, the comic-blog is now getting more and more popular.

“I was quite surprised to learn about the number of visitors,” said 30-year-old Diki Andeas, the author of Chickenstrip. “I never thought many people would like it.”

Surprisingly, Diki views himself as a “serious person” despite his laugh-inducing comic strip. The soft-spoken Diki, a web programmer for an IT company which he co-founded with his friends and is based in the West Java town of Cimahi, said he drew comics initially as part of his blog.

Chickenstrip usually deals with IT-related issues, reflecting the author’s daily life and environment. But once in a while it also features funny episodes on topical social situations. For example, when one of Diki’s colleagues became a father, he drew a comic about the “so-called IT father” who chose the name of the child from Google and searched Wikipedia for the meaning of fatherhood.

Here's a couple of his hilarious chickenstrip.

Sorry for the extreme resize due to my small template and the overwhelming amount of chickenstrip. I usually get excited when I found something good. Lol. Its hysterical. Just read that blog! Lol.