Selasa, Juni 30, 2009

euh...

I'm not going to complain.

...

Maybe.

But, yeah. Life is all about complaining, right? When are we going to be (at least) grateful that we are (at least) still alive, living a (not so) good life, healthy and well. For the simplest things in life that we never look twice. Cos we're humans, and cos complaining will make me feel better and make the other person listening/reading my complains to suffer and close the window at split seconds.

Ha! Makanya gw ga suka curhat. Curhat itu isinya apa sih? Keluhan semua! Bongkar aja aib kita ke semua orang dengan label "curhat". Jangan salahin gw karena gw jarang cerita. Bukan karena gw ga mau cerita tapi gw ga mau ujung-ujungnya gw jadi ngeluh sana sini tentang hal-hal yang *IMO* kurang penting untuk dikeluhkan. Lagipula setelah gw puas berkeluh kesah, trus hasilnya apa? Ga ada, selain lawan bicara gw yang akan turut bersimpati tapi tidak bisa melakukan apa pun untuk memperbaiki keadaan dan gw yang dosa karena entah itu ngomongin orang atau malah malu banget karena abis bongkar aib sendiri.

Oh, well.

Gw stress. Karena uang. Hahahah! Sial! Uang oh uang... kenapa kau tidak tumbuh di pohon saja... Lalalala~ *mulai sinting*

Oh. Ya. Gw emang 25 tahun. So? Lo ngarep gw nikah tahun ini sekitar bulan Desember? OKEH! Gw cari dulu ceweknya *lha?!* Lo kira cari cowok baik yang nyambung dan mendekati ideal itu segampang nyabut bulu ketek? Cari dimana? Gw punya keterbatasan dan terkucil pula. Lagian kenapa semua orang keknya ga punya topik lain selain : klo dah nikah undang2 ya...

Pre~t. Nikah aja lo sendiri sana.

Jumat, Juni 26, 2009

MJ is Gone

I'm talking about Michael Jackson. The news said that he died at UCLA Hospital, LA, USA (25/6/2009). Why do I care? It's because I can't imagine a world without someone like Michael Jackson, and because of the most obvious reason : because he is one of my brother in Islam.

Gw akui kalau gw sedikit banyak berharap kalau MJ bisa membawa nama Islam ke dunia dengan perubahan sikap dan tingkah lakunya kalau benar dia mendalami Islam dengan sepenuh hati. Gw percaya kalau dia udah menerima dirinya dan Tuhan (Allah SWT), mungkin dia bisa berubah dan lebih down to earth *nginjek tanah, istilah gw mah*. Dengan segala popularitasnya, abuse masa kecil dan segala macem yang dialaminya selama hidupnya, MJ mungkin belum pernah hidup secara 'normal' dan bener-bener *nginjek tanah*.

I don't know him personally, and I truly don't care about his sick life. But I do feel sorry that this is happening to him. I hope he really did find enlightenment in Islam and died in peace. Amin.

(source 1 & 2)

Rabu, Juni 24, 2009

fangirling


Look at all those fangirls.

Gw dah beberapa kali ya nonton video reality/variety show big bang (boy band rap/hip hop/RnB korea yang gw suka) dan setiap kali gw ngeliat sesama fangirls yang tertangkap kamera... kok gw miris ya? Kenapa mereka nonton konser dengan sweat shirt doank? Bukannya pake baju yang oke dikit, rambut ditata dikit, pake make up dikit. Ok, gw tau untuk alasan kepraktisan, para fangirls ini pake baju yang biasa supaya bisa nyaman dan toh mereka ga kesorot kamera, para idola mereka yang kesorot kamera dan mereka lah (para idol yang ditonton diatas panggung) yang harus dandan, merhatiin penampilan, and so on.

Coba deh, para fangirls yang suka ama boy/girlband dari Korea atau Jepang kalau misalnya lagi merhatiin atau nonton reality/variety show para idolanya diperhatiin bener-bener itu para sesama fangirls. Mereka pasti tampil dengan baju yang warnanya sama semua (hitam/grey/coklat) dengan potongan/gaya rambut yang sama semua (bob sebahu atau diiket pony tail seadanya) dan tanpa make up. Emang sih kebanyakan masih ABG anak sekolahan jadi wajar aja mereka gayanya sama semua. Tapi... Yang boneng aja?! Gw aja waktu masih sekolah klo mau pergi nonton konser sama temen juga masih mau dandan macem-macem kok (waktu masih sekolah gw belom pake jilbab). Malah klo tampilan gw terlalu seadanya pasti bakalan dikomentarin sama yang lain.

Klo diperhatiin bener-bener... kok mukanya sama semua?! Ga ada yang stand out in the croud. Pake baju warna kuning satu-satunya di antara lautan warna hitam kek. Rambutnya diapain kek, diikalin dan pake make up dikit gitu biar cantik pas diliat idola dan sesama fangirls. Apa kek?! Wajah-wajah para fangirls ini (maap) agak menyedihkan jadinya. Soalnya... sama semua. Kek kumpulan kepala dan rambut warna hitam, bukannya wajah cantik individual atau apa kek yang keliatan.

Sampe gw komen sama adek gw : "Keknya yang cantik dan pede ga bakalan pergi ke konser buat nonton konser big bang soalnya gengsinya ketinggian buat ngumpul sama ABG yang dandanannya sama semua dan culun2 beibeh kek gitu. Mending pergi ke club kali ye,"

(lucky fans big bang pada ga tau blog gw dan orang korea rata-rata ga bisa bahasa Indo. Yeay!)

Makanya jangan fangirling mulu! Get a life, girl! (gw lagi ngomong ma diri ndiri, btw)

Entah kenapa gw sekarang ngerasa beruntung karena Big Bang dan boy band-boy band lain yang gw stalking itu pada di Korea semua wkwkwk..XD

pick up line

"Rumahnya dimana?"

"Di xxx,"

"Ooohh masih disitu?"

"Iya,"

"Belom pindah?"

Pfffffffftttttt!!!

Lo kata rumah gw kek rumah siput, bisa digendong?!

Klo ga ada ide mau ngomong apa lagi mending mingkem aja deh. Ga penting banget si lo.

Btw, untuk sodara Kirana, gw minta maap ya. Gw ga sadar klo dah nyakitin orang tapi beneran minta maap deh. m(_ _)m

Senin, Juni 22, 2009

my newest obsession

LG KT 610

Communicator Mungil, Sudah HSDPA

Dilengkapi dengan speaker di bagian dalamnya, seri KT610 ini bak ponsel musik yang mampu mengeluarkan suara menggelegar.

Lama dinanti akhirnya seri communicator keluaran LG bisa ditemui di pasar. Berlabel KT610, ponsel ini memiliki desain yang mirip dengan communicator Nokia. Keunggulannya dalam hal desain adalah dimensinya yang cukup mungil dengan jajaran keypad komplet-nya alias QWERTY keyboard. Harga bandrolnya pun tidak setinggi communicator Nokia. LG mematok harga jual ponsel ini tidak lebih dari 3,5 jutaan.

Dalam hal teknologi khususnya aplikasi, KT610 sudah menggunakan sistem operasi symbian ver.9.2, S60. Seri ini mampu berjalan di jaringan HSDPA yang bakal membantu penggunanya untuk berselancar ke dunia maya dengan kecepatan tinggi. Masalah memori, kita tak perlu pusing dan khawatir kekurangan ruang untuk menyimpan data. Pabrikan asal Korea Selatan ini sudah menyediakan slot memori tambahan micro SD yang bisa menampung hingga 8 Gb. Berikut hasil pengujian SELULAR , komplet dengan penilaian dan beberapa catatan yang perlu diperhatikan :

DESAIN
Dalam kondisi terlipat, KT610 sepintas tak tampak sebagai seri communicator. Body-nya nampak gendut dan terlihat seperti ponsel candybar. Di bagian atas terletak slot untuk koneksi tenaga listrik alias charging. Slot ini juga berfungsi sebagai slot headset dan juga kabel data.
Pengujian: Menggenggam ponsel dan menyimpannya ke dalam saku.
Nilai: 3,3
Catatan: Terlihat gendut saat cover tertutup

KEYPAD
Full QWERTY keyboard. Inilah kesamaan ponsel ini dengan communicator Nokia. Di bagian depan terdapat tombol-tombol sebagaimana ponsel biasa. Kita bisa membuka menu-menu standar saat ponsel tertutup. Misalkan membaca dan mengirim SMS. Di bagian depan juga ada tombol shortcut kamera. Kita bisa melakukan pengambilan gambar/foto langsung dengan tombol khusus di kiri atas. Di samping kirinya terdapat dua tombol untuk mengatur volume sebagaimana ponsel-ponsel lainnya.
Pengujian: Mengoperasikan keypad luar dan dalam.
Nilai: 3,2
Catatan: Lebih nyaman bila menggunakan QWERTY keypad, terutama untuk menulis SMS

PORT
KT610 memiliki satu port yang selain berfungsi untuk koneksi charging juga sebagai port untuk menghubungkan perangkat audio seperti headset. Port ini juga berfungsi sebagai penghubung ke perangkat PC atau notebook menggunakan fasilitas kabel data.
Pengujian : Melakukan charging dan menghubungkan ponsel dengan headset.
Nilai: 3,2
Catatan: Tidak bisa mendengarkan musik menggunakan headset bila ponsel sedang di charge.

LAYAR
Ada dua layar yang berfungsi untuk menampilkan menu-menunya. Layar pertama yang ada di bagian depan berukuran hanya sebesar 1,45 inci. Sedangkan layar bagian dalam berukuran 2,4 inci. Untuk layar bagian luar tergolong kecil dan tidak nyaman untuk digunakan. Misalkan mengoperasikan kameranya dan membidik objek foto. Layar terlalu kecil dan hasil fotonya persegi panjang. Sementara untuk layar bagian dalam juga kecil untuk ukuran sebuah communicator. Saat membuka file office berformat word, kecilnya layar sangat terasa.
Pengujian: Memotret objek saat ponsel tertutup. Serta membuka file format doc di layar bagian dalam
Nilai: 3
Catatan: Lebih nyaman menggunakan layar dalam, termasuk memotret.

KAMERA
Seri ini berbekal kamera 2 MP. Kualitas hasil pengambilan gambarnya sangat baik di kelasnya. Sayangnya kamera KT610 tidak dibekali beberapa fitur penting untuk memaksimalkan hasil kameranya. Salah satunya adalah tanpa dibekali flash. Sehingga saat mengambil objek dalam kondisi kurang cahaya, dipastikan hasilnya akan buruk.
Pengujian: Membidik objek foto dan juga video
Nilai: 3
Catatan: Akan lebih maksimal bila memotret dengan menggunakan layar dalam.

OFFICE
Ini dia fitur utama atau pamungkas dari sebuah seri communicator. Fitur office yang akan memperlancar pekerjaan kantor sudah ada di seri ini. Pada awalnya hanya mampu untuk melihat file saja, namun pabrikannya sudah membenamkan aplikasi tambahan untuk menambah kemampuan editing. Format yang kompatibel dengan office-nya antara lain doc, xls, dan ppt).
Pengujian: Membuka file format doc.
Nilai: 3
Catatan: Supaya bisa editing, mesti download dulu aplikasi tambahan yang ada dalam memori ponsel.

KONEKTIVITAS
Menghubungkan perangkat ini ke PC atau notebook bisa dilakukan dengan beberapa cara. Fasilitas transfer data baik bluetooth dan kabel data bisa berfungsi dengan baik. Kita bisa memindahkan data antar perangkat tersebut dengan mudah. Selain foto dan juga video, kita juga bisa mengirim file kerjaan kantor lewat perangkat transfer ini. Mengirim file doc berukuran 48 kb dengan bluetooth berlangsung sangat cepat bahkan hanya sekedipan mata.
Pengujian: Mengirim berbagai file dari notebook lewat bluetooth.
Nilai: 3
Catatan: Ada baiknya beri nama bluetooth ponsel ini untuk memudahkan pencarian dan juga pairing.

INTERNET
Koneksi internetnya berjalan baik. Menggunakan jaringan HSDPA, koneksinya berjalan cukup baik dan sangat cepat. Kalau sinyal HSDPA tidak tertangkap dengan sempurna, ponsel otomatis memaksimalkan jaringan 3G-nya. Demikian pula bila 3G tidak tertangkap dengan baik, GPRS akan menggantikannya. Sayang tidak ada perangkat Wi Fi di ponsel ini. Padahal fasilitas tersebut merupakan fitur “wajib” untuk ponsel jenis ini.
Pengujian: Berselancar ke berbagai situs seperti www.selular.co.id
Nilai: 3
Catatan: Perhatikan kode akses di bagian penunjuk sinyal kiri atas layar. Itu mencerminkan jaringan apa yang sedang kita gunakan.

MEMORI
Kapasitas memori internal KT610 sebesar 60 Mb. Sedangkan untuk memori eksternalnya menggunakan micro SD yang bisa menampung hingga 8 Gb. Kapasitas memori yang sebesar itu tidak akan membuat pengguna kesulitan atau bermasalah saat menampung file-file ukuran besar.
Pengujian: Menyimpan file berbagai format dengan memori 2 Gb.
Nilai: 3,3
Catatan: Slot memori sudah hot swap, jadi tidak perlu melepas baterai untuk menyelipkan bahkan melepas memori.

SKOR AKHIR: 3,1

Kinerja
Secara keseluruhan kinerja LG KT610 tergolong baik. Saat digunakan untuk melakukan paggilan dan menerima panggilan suara yang terdengar cukup baik. Nyaris tanpa gangguan suara asing lainnya. Keterbatasan yang nampak sebagai ponsel Communicator adalah tak ada Wi Fi.

Kinerja Baterai
Data vendor: Baterainya mampu digunakan untuk siaga selama 200 jam dan waktu bicara nonstop selama 2 jam 30 menit

Kamis, Juni 18, 2009

sadis?!

Gw? Sadis? Oh nooo!!!

Oke, mari kita mundur beberapa langkah ke belakang. Beberapa jam ke belakang, gw sedang berdilematis ria karena IDM gw ngadat yang menyebabkan PC Server yang sekarang sedang gw pegang nge-hang beberapa kali jadi harus restart PC beberapa kali juga yang terus terang bikin gw panik juga takut ni kompi rusak karena semua data gw disimpen disini semua belom di back up satu pun berhubung ini PC jadul punya kagak ada DVD RW-nya (crap!) dan tentu saja mengakibatkan gw tidak bisa mendonlot apa pun pagi ini yang tentu saja membuat sekarang gw akhirnya malah blogging padahal inet lagi lancar dan gw napsu banget pengen donlot tapi apa daya, windows explorernya nge-hang, bikin gw jadi makin parno dan ga bisa kerja karena tombol startnya kagak keliatan karena explorer yang nge-hang tea (halah!). Ini kalimat terpanjang yang gw tulis out of frustration, jadi harap maklum lah dikit. =[

Setelah gw tulis blog ini, PC servernya akan gw restart untuk yang kesekian kalinya. Pada saat-saat seperti ini gw sangat berharap ada teknisi IT di kantor pemda nan butut ini. T_T

Okelah back to topic.

Pada saat akhirnya gw memutuskan untuk tidak mendonlot apa-apa (karena emang GA BISA bukan ga mau) gw pun blog walking out of boredom and cos I don't want to work even though there's a pile of files waiting. Ah, nevermind, gw mulai ngelantur. Anyway, gw blog walking ke blognya cubung, dan dia menulis tentang prinsip, cara berpikir, ideologi (keknya agak lebai klo disimilarkan dengan yang terakhir, but anyway...) dan lain sebagainya oleh orang-orang yang ada disekitar dia. Gw baca dengan ketertarikan yang amat sangat dunk ah, seperti biasa klo gw baca blognya dia dan pas gw baca tengahnya...

“Mudah aja kok, apa yang orang lain lakukan ke gue, gue akan melakukan hal yang sama ke dia.”

Sekali lagi, dalam sudut pandang gue yang terbatas, orang ini menekankan hubungan berintinkan fungsi. Apa sih namanya? Law of attraction kalo ngga salah, orang yang menginginkan hubungan dua arah dengan lawan mainnya. Ngga akan pernah mau maju duluan untuk memulai sebuah hubungan, kecuali mungkin orang tertentu punya daya tarik yang membuat dia sangat ingin membangun hubungan. Akan baik ke orang kalau orang itu baik ke dia, tapi bakalan masa bodo dengan orang yang ngga ada feel dengan si pemilik prinsip. “It’s alright if you want to know me, but it’s ok if you wanna leave, like i care”. Gampangnya begitu, mungkin. Pragmatis, andaikan ngga ada untungnya berhubungan dengan seseorang, mungkin dia ngga akan minat bahkan untuk mengobrol basa-basi. Tipe sadis.
Inspired by me?

Hahah... pede banget gw. Entah ya, gw belom menghubungi cubung karena lagi males onlen YM berhubung bentar lagi toh setelah gw nulis ini, PC-nya mau direstart dan (mungkin) gw bakalan gawe. But anyway, dibilang itu cukup menohok, oh SANGAT. Lol. Gw emang tipe yang kek gitu. Pragmatis kalo kata Tika mah. Dan ternyata Cubung mengeluarkan kata yang sama pula untuk tipe prinsip seperti ini, dengan tambahan kata : Tipe sadis. Lol.

Why am I not surprised? LOL.

Yea, ga sekali dua kali gw dibilang sadis sama dia. Lol. Tapi tetep aja yaaaaaa.... Gw sampe sekarang masih ngerasa : apa ada yang salah dengan hal itu? Kok semua orang keknya ngeliat itu kek itu tuh salah banget yaaa... gw sendiri yang menjalani sama sekali ga ngerasa ada yang salah dengan hal itu dan gw pribadi fine-fine aja. Yea, persepsi orang-orang kan beda ya. Gw sih seneng-seneng aja temen-temen gw ini masih mau jadi temen gw biarpun dah tau gw orangnya kek gini dan SANGAT susah untuk diubah (and why the hell do u want to change me, anyway?).

Ok, moving on gw baca lagi tulisannya dia dan topiknya dah berubah lagi. Tentang blog dan orang yang baca blognya. Hahaha dia emang sempet bilang sih klo misalnya temen-temen RW-nya dia pada baca blognya trus DIBAHAS. OMG! Gw ikutan jadi parno WAKAKAKA. Masalahnya isi blognya dia itu private banget sementara blog gw... HAHAHAH let's just say that its for me and everyone else to see. :)

Akhirnya dia mutusin untuk nyimpen tulisannya di blog private yang dirahasiakan (dan entah apa gw boleh liat atau ga) dan sepertinya yang lain juga udah melakukan hal yang sama bahkan sebelum Cubung kepikiran tentang hal itu. Including me. =]

Rabu, Juni 17, 2009

Tired Face

Bukan maksud hati untuk menjadi orang yang selalu keliatan lagi pundung atau istilah kerennya mah pundungan. Kek selalu nanggung beban berat dan keknya lagi cranky 24/7 dan bentar lagi meledak dalam burst of tears. OMG. NO! I'm not. Seringnya gw itu bukan sedang pundung kalau memperlihatkan wajah diem nan jutek tapi itu sedang capek! Tired! Exhausted! Etc, lah.

Gw sampe ke tempat acara itu biasanya setelah beberapa jam atau setelah melakukan aktivitas lain yang kurang lebih sama melelahkannya. Apalagi gw orangnya kurus cungkring ga ada tenaganya, cepet capek, kurang semangat, letoy, ya wajar aja sih klo gw capek a.k.a tired. Menurut lo? Apalagi klo dah sampe maghrib, ugh rasanya badan gw mau rontok, muka dah berminyak ga keruan, badan dah lengket sama keringet. Aaaaaa~ kalo dah gitu rasanya pengen tidur aja! Apalagi berdasarkan pengalaman, klo mau pergi kemana-mana, gw ga tahan sama godaan begadang jadi pas gw lagi diluar itu, malemnya pasti baru tidur paling cepet jam 12.

Mana lingkaran hitam di bawah mata gw itu makin susah ilangnya lagi. Keknya nempel aja gitu terus kek kurang tidur permanen ala Seung Ri-nya Big Bang. Padahal gw udah usahain biar bisa tidur cepet tapi tetep aja... tergoda dengan bayangan begadang.

Kurang tidur, perjalanan jauh, capek karena aktivitas yang biasanya gw lakuin segambreng pas lagi diluar rumah (karna gw males keluar rumah, klo lagi keluar biasanya melakukan banyak hal sekaligus biar sekalian, gitu) bikin muka gw keliatan tired, capek, cranky. TAPI BUKAN BERARTI GW SEDANG PUNDUNGAN.

Padahal gw jarang banget pundung beneran.

Kamis, Juni 11, 2009

Moving On

Yea, I'm moving on.

I have a couple of friends dan mereka semua menyenangkan (dan pinter tentunya. LOL) tapi ga semuanya bisa gw mengerti. Karena mereka punya pemikiran sendiri yang beda dari manusia pada umumnya (lol) dan gw yang hanyalah manusia biasa yang punya pemikiran mainstream (dengan segala keanehan yang gw punya) ga selalu ngerti teman-teman gw itu. Seperti : kenapa lo bisa dan mau jadi orang tua bagi orang tua (karena ortunya kurang capable jadi ortu) dan adik-adiknya (lol), kenapa family and friends matter to you, or just the family part or just the friends part. Maksud gw... karena pada dasarnya gw tidak seperti itu.

I got a mass message. Ralat, I got a LOT of mass message saying happy friendsh*t day etc, etc, DENGAN BAHASA ALAY! di YM. Oh, sungguh ga penting. Gw ga percaya mereka yang ngirim mass message itu bahkan pernah SEKALIPUN ngobrol sama orang yang dapet mass message itu. Buktinya : GW. Karena list YM lo terdiri dari kumpulan anak IH kan? Gw dapet mass message itu dari orang-orang yang ga pernah chat sama gw bahkan sebulan sekali. FRIENDSHIP dari HONGKONG?!

Yea, with that in matter and PMS along the way.. I declare that friendship is bullsh*t. Bukannya gw ga suka sama temen-temen gw... tapi yaelah.. B ajalah. B. BIASA, maksudnya. Gw ga mau ngegantungin perasaan gw sama orang-orang yang.... introvert? Mungkin karena klo gw lebih deket sama orang-orang yang ekstrovert gw ngerasa lebih nyaman, soalnya gw bisa cerita dan mereka bisa moving on, no attachment whatsoever. Gw ngerasa deket, but not that close. Its a nice feeling to have. =)

Hahaha.. sebenernya gw lagi bingung sama diri sendiri. Kenapa gw bisa B aja ya waktu gw menemukan hal yang mengejutkan itu? Malah maklum. Mungkin orang biasa bakalan langsung marah-marah, depresi, putus asa, dst. Tapi gw malah B aja dan maklum aja tapi bukannya gw ga kesel. Gw kesel tapi karena hal yang diluar konteks. Pasti pada ga ngerti. Ya iyalah ini masalah internal keluarga gw yang menurut gw aib klo gw sebarluaskan. =D

TAPI! Ada hal yang lain yang bikin tensi gw naik. TOLONG ya nenk, gw BUKAN keset. Klo ga mau berhubungan lagi, bukan kek gitu caranya. Cih, kek ga pernah mutusin hubungan aja. Gw... sering. Caranya : tinggal bilang klo gw sibuk, with my life! Tu orang juga bakalan ngerti dan ga bakalan ganggu lagi. Bukan dengan cara DIUSIR dari kehidupan lo secara tidak hormat! Makasih deh. Tsk.

r u smart? :)

Hahah.. Hellow It's Thursday.

Sebenernya apa yang mau gw bahas agak basi kali ya karena gw dapet inspirasi tentang ini waktu gw lagi main ke rumah Ayu weekend kemaren tapi karena ini lucu jadi gw mau share aja.

Kalo kalian baca post sebelum ini yang membahas tentang tipe kepribadian saya, yaitu INTP (tapi pasti pada ga baca, siapa juga yang mau baca tulisan geje panjang2 warna biru itu hahah... ) dan ada sesuatu yang tiba-tiba 'klick' me when I was re-reading it at Ayu's place. Yaitu bahwa ternyata gw menyeleksi teman dan cowo itu dari.......... otaknya.

Hihihi.. Jadi ternyata, klo misalnya dalam kesan pertama (maksudnya obrolan pertama) lo menunjukan gejala lemot, kemungkinan besar gw ga akan merasa tertarik untuk melanjutkan pembicaraan lebih lanjut. WAKAKAKAK Yea, I know it's kinda like discrimination or sumthing tapi gw sangat menyadari kebenarannya. XDD

Orang-orang yang deket sama gw, rata-rata sudah gw akui kemampuan otaknya HAHAHAH. Dan itu termasuk untuk cowo yang pernah deket sama gw. Beberapa mantan gw ga bisa bertahan lebih dari beberapa hari karena gw ga tahan sama kelemotan mereka. Why I even dated them at the first place? Well, itu karena waktu itu gw iseng aja dan lagi sepi sendiri. LOL.

So, kalau kalian merasa dekat dengan saya, harap diperhatikan bahwa itu karena saya mengakui kecerdasan kalian sebagai seorang individual. Lol. Dan gw ada contohnya kalau gw paling tensi sama orang yang lemot. Orang kantor gw kebetulan ada yang super duper lemot dan gw paling ga tahan kalau deket-deket sama dia lebih dari 5 menit! Kenapa? Karena dia LEMOT! Gw sadar kalau ga semua orang dilahirkan cerdas dan pinter (kek gw *dibacok*) jadi ga seharusnya gw langsung ngamuk-ngamuk cuma karena dia nanya pertanyaan yang sama yang dia tanyain kemaren padahal klo emang ga ngerti harusnya dicatet aja ** tapi gw tetep aja ga bisa nahan perasaan pengen ngamuk-ngamuk pas itu terjadi. Makanya gw bisa langsung jadi ramah sama orang yang cepet ngerti maksud gw dan cepet tensi sama orang yang lemoooooooooottttnya ampun-ampunan. Lol.

So r u smart enough to be my friend? (lol kesannya kek gw diskriminasi beneran!)

Senin, Juni 08, 2009

hellow world

Yellow, hellow peeps. Yea, I'm pretty much in a good mood right now. Tadinya gw mikir bos gw marah tanpa alasan ke gw tapi ternyata ga... jadi ya... lewat lah. XDD

Gw rasanya balik lagi jadi suram deh. Ada yang salah dengan mejadi suram? Rasanya nyaman jadi suram. Gw tetep ngerasa bersemangat untuk hidup, i had fun yesterday, gw becanda, ketawa, nyanyi (kemaren karaokean.red), beli-beli beberapa alat komputer yang emang gw perlu, ngabisin setengah jatah sebulan karna sibuk hedon awal bulan, dan hal-hal biasa lainnya. Tapi yah, ga bisa dipungkiri ada beberapa hal yang bikin gw terpukul, pundung, sedih, dan berbagai emosi lain. Meskipun cuma bertahan selama beberapa jam karena ada pengalihan perhatian dari temen-temen gw, gw jadi ga sempet sedih dan pundung lama-lama tapi toh klo gw lagi sendirian kek sekarang atau ntar malem, I dunno.. maybe I just don't want to think about it. Mencari segala macem pelarian supaya ga usah memikirkan gw ke dalam sisi tergelap dunia. Haha.

Ya, gw ga bisa cerita secara eksplisit di sini karena ada beberapa yang bersifat personal dan ada juga beberapa yang emang rasanya ga usah sebut nama karena gw ga mau nyebut namanya lagi (pundung.red) yah, begitulah. Rasanya ga enak, sesak. Gw ga mau mikirin, gw ga mau membahas jadi mari kita lanjutkan blog ini dengan hal-hal yang lebih ceria.

Kemaren selama dua hari gw hedon sampe ngabisin jatah bulanan gw sampe setengahnya huhuhu.. Ini dilema antara seneng dan sedih nih. >.< Seneng karena akhirnya hedon juga, sedih karena... yaaaaaaa... duit gueeeeee... TT__TT

Hari sabtu gw lewatkan dengan mojok bersama Tika lintas Jakarta keliling-keliling Kota buat jenguk seorang manusia bernama Cubung yang waktu gw bilang mau jenguk langsung marah-marah bilang "Ga boleh, ngapain sih? Ngerepotin aja!" Wah, wah orang niat baik malah digituin yang tadinya mau dateng sama Tika ampe ga jadi kan tuh? Eh, ternyata tak diduga tak disangka, Tika ternyata punya niat yang sama kek gw tapi dia peduli tai kotok sama larangannya Cubung WAKAKAK =)) Yang awalnya gw yang mau ngajak dia, eh, dia yang ngajak gw akhirnya :3 Ah, Tika emang Gentle <3 wkwkwk..XD Anyway, it was fun dan gw seneng banget bisa ngobrol dan jalan sama Tika trus ngobrol dan bercanda sama Cubung yang keknya malah tambah sakit gw jenguk Hahahah... XDD

Pulangnya gw disms Lian suruh onlen sementara gw lagi di Kota mana sempet pulang ontime buat onlen, akhirnya gw mutusin nginep di rumah Ayu dan *sfx: Jengjengjeng* Thiwy ternyata udah nginep di rumah Ayu dari kemaren! Dia ada USM UI di SMA 38 (kenapa gw masih inget sampe sekarang? Soalnya gw nganterin sampe nungguin dia beres ujian -_-). Kita ngegosip bertiga sampe Thiwy ga sempet belajar dan baru tidur jam setengah dua pagi WAKAKAKA..XDD Oh, gw ga mau sampe bikin anak orang ga lulus ujian masuk UI. TT__TT

Selesai ujian, Thiwy, gw, Mida dan Sha niatnya mau karaokean. Tapi karena kehadiran mereka diragukan dan udah pasti lama! (ehem) Akhirnya gw sama Thiwy nonton dulu. XMen-Wolverine. Filmnya okelah tapi masalahnya gw udah nonton itu dulu di rumah Jun waktu nginep disana bareng Oshin. Filmnya belom kena editan akhir CG-nya makanya agak aneh juga nontonnya tapi jadi kek bisa liat the making of sambil nonton seluruh ceritanya. Yatta-yatta-yatta yah, begitulah. Ternyata selesai nonton mereka semua dateng termasuk Ayu dan kita pun karaokean sampe suara gw nyaris abis. Dari lagu alay sampe lagu jadul semua dibabat. Nice.

Lian marah-marah karna ga diajak tapi ntar ajalah kapan-kapan kita bareng. =)) Abis itu gw pulang setelah jajan roti di Bread Talk dan beli perlengkapan komputer buat laptop (yang tentu saja gw ngarep minta diganti kantor karena itu laptop kan bukan punya gw TT__TT). Dan sekarang gw bisa dibilang bangkrut HOHOHO! Gaji ke 13 kapan sih? TT___TT

Jumat, Juni 05, 2009

Portrait of an INTP - Introverted iNtuitive Thinking Perceiving

The Thinker

As an INTP, your primary mode of living is focused internally, where you deal with things rationally and logically. Your secondary mode is external, where you take things in primarily via your intuition.

INTPs live in the world of theoretical possibilities. They see everything in terms of how it could be improved, or what it could be turned into. They live primarily inside their own minds, having the ability to analyze difficult problems, identify patterns, and come up with logical explanations. They seek clarity in everything, and are therefore driven to build knowledge. They are the "absent-minded professors", who highly value intelligence and the ability to apply logic to theories to find solutions. They typically are so strongly driven to turn problems into logical explanations, that they live much of their lives within their own heads, and may not place as much importance or value on the external world. Their natural drive to turn theories into concrete understanding may turn into a feeling of personal responsibility to solve theoretical problems, and help society move towards a higher understanding.

INTPs value knowledge above all else. Their minds are constantly working to generate new theories, or to prove or disprove existing theories. They approach problems and theories with enthusiasm and skepticism, ignoring existing rules and opinions and defining their own approach to the resolution. They seek patterns and logical explanations for anything that interests them. They're usually extremely bright, and able to be objectively critical in their analysis. They love new ideas, and become very excited over abstractions and theories. They love to discuss these concepts with others. They may seem "dreamy" and distant to others, because they spend a lot of time inside their minds musing over theories. They hate to work on routine things - they would much prefer to build complex theoretical solutions, and leave the implementation of the system to others. They are intensely interested in theory, and will put forth tremendous amounts of time and energy into finding a solution to a problem with has piqued their interest.

INTPs do not like to lead or control people. They're very tolerant and flexible in most situations, unless one of their firmly held beliefs has been violated or challenged, in which case they may take a very rigid stance. The INTP is likely to be very shy when it comes to meeting new people. On the other hand, the INTP is very self-confident and gregarious around people they know well, or when discussing theories which they fully understand.

The INTP has no understanding or value for decisions made on the basis of personal subjectivity or feelings. They strive constantly to achieve logical conclusions to problems, and don't understand the importance or relevance of applying subjective emotional considerations to decisions. For this reason, INTPs are usually not in-tune with how people are feeling, and are not naturally well-equiped to meet the emotional needs of others.

The INTP may have a problem with self-aggrandizement and social rebellion, which will interfere with their creative potential. Since their Feeling side is their least developed trait, the INTP may have difficulty giving the warmth and support that is sometimes necessary in intimate relationships. If the INTP doesn't realize the value of attending to other people's feelings, he or she may become overly critical and sarcastic with others. If the INTP is not able to find a place for themself which supports the use of their strongest abilities, they may become generally negative and cynical. If the INTP has not developed their Sensing side sufficiently, they may become unaware of their environment, and exhibit weakness in performing maintenance-type tasks, such as bill-paying and dressing appropriately.

For the INTP, it is extremely important that ideas and facts are expressed correctly and succinctly. They are likely to express themselves in what they believe to be absolute truths. Sometimes, their well thought-out understanding of an idea is not easily understandable by others, but the INTP is not naturally likely to tailor the truth so as to explain it in an understandable way to others. The INTP may be prone to abandoning a project once they have figured it out, moving on to the next thing. It's important that the INTP place importance on expressing their developed theories in understandable ways. In the end, an amazing discovery means nothing if you are the only person who understands it.

The INTP is usually very independent, unconventional, and original. They are not likely to place much value on traditional goals such as popularity and security. They usually have complex characters, and may tend to be restless and temperamental. They are strongly ingenious, and have unconventional thought patterns which allows them to analyze ideas in new ways. Consequently, a lot of scientific breakthroughs in the world have been made by the INTP.

The INTP is at his best when he can work on his theories independently. When given an environment which supports his creative genius and possible eccentricity, the INTP can accomplish truly remarkable things. These are the pioneers of new thoughts in our society.


Careers for INTP Personality Types


Whether you're a young adult trying to find your place in the world, or a not-so-young adult trying to find out if you're moving along the right path, it's important to understand yourself and the personality traits which will impact your likeliness to succeed or fail at various careers. It's equally important to understand what is really important to you. When armed with an understanding of your strengths and weaknesses, and an awareness of what you truly value, you are in an excellent position to pick a career which you will find rewarding.

INTPs generally have the following traits:

  • Love theory and abstract ideas
  • Truth Seekers - they want to understand things by analyzing underlying principles and structures
  • Value knowledge and competence above all else
  • Have very high standards for performance, which they apply to themselves
  • Independent and original, possibly eccentric
  • Work best alone, and value autonomy
  • Have no desire to lead or follow
  • Dislike mundane detail
  • Not particularly interested in the practical application of their work
  • Creative and insightful
  • Future-oriented
  • Usually brilliant and ingenius
  • Trust their own insights and opinions above others
  • Live primarily inside their own minds, and may appear to be detached and uninvolved with other people

INTPs have a special gift with generating and analyzing theories and possibilities to prove or disprove them. They have a great deal of insight and are creative thinkers, which allows them to quickly grasp complex abstract thoughts. They also have exceptional logical and rational reasoning skills, which allows them to thoroughly analyze theories to discover the Truth about them. Since the INTP is driven to seek clarity in the world, we have a happy match of desire and ability in this personality type. INTPs will be happiest in careers which allow them a great deal of autonomy in which they can work primarily alone on developing and analyzing complex theories and abstractions, with the goal of their work being the discovery of a truth, rather than the discovery of a practical application.

The following list of professions is built on our impressions of careers which would be especially suitable for an INTP. It is meant to be a starting place, rather than an exhaustive list. There are no guarantees that any or all of the careers listed here would be appropriate for you, or that your best career match is among those listed.

Possible Career Paths for the INTP:

  • Scientists - especially Physics, Chemistry
  • Photographers
  • Strategic Planners
  • Mathematicians
  • University Professors
  • Computer Programmers, Systems Analysts, Computer Animation and Computer Specialists
  • Technical Writers
  • Engineers
  • Lawyers / Attorneys
  • Judges
  • Forensic Research
  • Forestry and Park Rangers

INTP Relationships



INTPs live rich worlds inside their minds, which are full of imagination and excitement. Consequently, they sometimes find the external world pales in comparison. This may result in a lack of motivation to form and maintain relationships. INTPs are not likely to have a very large circle of significant relationships in their lives. They're much more likely to have a few very close relationships, which they hold in great esteem and with great affection. Since the INTP's primary focus and attention is turned inwards, aimed towards seeking clarity from abstract ideas, they are not naturally tuned into others' emotional feelings and needs. They tend to be difficult to get to know well, and hold back parts of themselves until the other person has proven themselves "worthy" of hearing the INTP's thoughts. Holding Knowledge and Brain Power above all else in importance, the INTP will choose to be around people who they consider to be intelligent. Once the INTP has committed themself to a relationship, they tend to be very faithful and loyal, and form affectionate attachments which are pure and straight-forward. The INTP has no interest or understanding of game-playing with regards to relationships. However, if something happens which the INTP considers irreconciliable, they will leave the relationship and not look back.


INTP Strengths


  • They feel love and affection for those close to them which is almost childlike in its purity
  • Generally laid-back and easy-going, willing to defer to their mates
  • Approach things which interest them very enthusiastically
  • Richly imaginative and creative
  • Do not feel personally threatened by conflict or criticism
  • Usually are not demanding, with simple daily needs


INTP Weaknesses


  • Not naturally in tune with others' feelings; slow to respond to emotional needs
  • Not naturally good at expressing their own feelings and emotions
  • Tend to be suspicious and distrusting of others
  • Not usually good at practical matters, such as money management, unless their work involves these concerns
  • They have difficulty leaving bad relationships
  • Tend to "blow off" conflict situations by ignoring them, or else they "blow up" in heated anger


INTPs as Lovers


"To love means to open ourselves to the negative as well as the positive - to grief, sorrow, and disappointment as well as to joy, fulfillment, and an intensity of consciousness we did not know was possible before." -- Rollo May

INTPs approach their intimate relationships quite seriously - as they approach most things in life. They take their vows and commitments seriously, and are usually faithful and loyal. They are usually pretty easy to live with and be around, because they have simple daily needs and are not overly demanding of their partners in almost any respect. While the INTP's internal life is highly theoretical and complex, their external life in comparison is usually quite simple. They like to keep the complexities of their external world to a minimum, so that they can focus their brain power on working through their theories internally. This makes them very straight-forward, honest lovers, with a love that is quite pure in its simple, uncomplicated nature.

Although they choose to keep things straight-forward in their relationships, this does not mean that the INTP is lacking in depth of feeling or passion. The INTP is very creative person, who has vivid imaginations. They can be very excitable and passionate about their love relationships. Sometimes, they have a problem reconciling the exciting visions of their internal worlds with the actuality of their external circumstances.

Sexually, the INTP usually approaches intimacy with enthusiasm and excitement. Some INTPs play down entirely the need for sexual relations in their lives, but most use their rich imaginations and child-like enthusiasm to make the most of the moment. The INTP will usually be experiencing the moment with vivid intensity inside their own minds, although this may or may not be apparent to their partner.

The largest area of potential strife in an INTP's intimate relationship is their slowness in understanding and meeting their partner's emotional needs. The INTP may be extremely dedicated to the relationship, and deeply in love with their partner, but may have no understanding of their mate's emotional life, and may not express their own feelings often or well. When the INTP does express themselves, it's likely to be in their own way at their own time, rather than in response to their partner's needs. If this is an issue which has caused serious problems in a relationship, the INTP should work on becoming more aware of their partner's feelings, and their partner should work on not requiring explicit positive affirmation to feel loved by the INTP.

INTPs do not like to deal with messy complications, such as interpersonal conflict, and so they may fall into the habit of ignoring conflict when it occurs. If they feel they must face the conflict, they're likely to approach it from an analytical perspective. This may aggravate the conflict situation, if their partner simply wants to feel that they are supported and loved. Most people (and especially those with the Feeling preference) simply want to be encouraged, affirmed and supported when they are upset. The INTP should practice meeting these needs in conflict situations.

Although two well-developed individuals of any type can enjoy a healthy relationship, the INTP's natural partner is the ENTJ, or the ESTJ. The INTP's dominant function of Introverted Thinking is best matched with a partner whose personality is dominated by Extraverted Thinking. The INTP/ENTJ match is ideal, because these types shared Intuition as a common way of perceiving the world, but INTP/ESTJ is also a good match. How did we arrive at this?


INTPs as Parents


"You are the bows from which your children as living arrows are sent forth...
Let your bending in the archer's hand be for gladness;
For even as He loves the arrow that flies,
so He loves also the bow that is stable." -- Kahlil Gibran

INTPs love and respect Knowledge, and want to pass their jewels of thought down to their children. Their greatest goal and satisfaction as a parent is seeing their children grow into independent, rational adults.

INTP parents are likely to encourage their children to grow as individuals, rather than attempt to fit them into a preconceived mold. They will stress autonomy through the children's growth. They're likely to respect their children's opinions and wishes, and allow their children to have a voice and presence in the family.

The INTP parents are likely to be pretty laid-back and flexible with their children, sometimes to the point of being relatively "hands-off" with regards to the day-to-day issues. They're likely to count on their spouse for providing structure and schedules. Since the INTP themself does not live in an overly structured or organized manner, they're not likely to expect or create this environment for their children. If their spouse is not someone with the "J" preference, their children may suffer from a lack of boundaries. This is something the INTP should pay special attention to. Growing children don't know Right from Wrong, and so benefit from having their parents define these boundaries for them.

In spite of their relatively unstructured approach to parenting, INTPs take their role as parent very seriously, and are likely to put forth much effort into doing what they feel will be most effective in helping their children grow into independent, wise adults. INTPs enjoy parenting, and get a lot of fun out of their children. They're also likely to be very proud and loyal parents.

INTPs may have a problem meeting the emotional needs of their children. Although they generally are deeply caring and supportive individuals, the INTP does not always pick up on emotional clues. A troubled child of an unaware INTP parent may have to result to drastic "attention-getting" tactics to get their parent to understand their emotional difficulties. If you find yourself in this situation, you may find that expressing some of your own emotions will do wonders for your child, yourself, and your relationship. Although it may not be possible for you to suddenly be "tuned in" on what your children are feeling, at least you can let them know that you care.

Children of INTP parents generally remember them respectfully and affectionately as loyal, fair, and tolerant parents, who care for them a great deal, although they don't often show it.


INTPs as Friends


INTPs are likely to have friends who share their interests and pursuits. Since the INTP loves theories, ideas, and concepts, they are not likely to have much patience or understanding for people with the Sensing preference, who are not usually comfortable with abstract conceptualizing.


INTP Personal Growth


What does Success mean to an INTP?

People with the INTP personality type are global thinkers. They see everything as one giant Entity that is connected, and seek knowledge about that Entity. They constantly seek the Truth, and have ultimate respect for the Truth. It is not easy for the INTP to reach a conclusion about the Truth. Their auxiliary function of Extraverted Intuition allows them to absorb the many complexities in our world, and they are driven to consider each of these complexities before reaching a conclusion. Once they have reached a conclusion, or discovered a Truth, they are *very* particular about the way that Truth is expressed and understood. They want to know that the principles of their understanding have been understood correctly, and demand absolute precision and correctness from others when describing these principles. They also apply these standards to themselves when communicating their knowledge. If they take the time to develop their communication so that it meets their own approval, they can be extremely good educational writers.

In addition to their immense respect for metaphysical principles, facts, and Truths, the INTP highly respects logic and the way that the mind works logically when seeking to master some subject or situation. They get great pleasure from engaging in logical acts that require quick, spatial reasoning, such as mind games, or time-based IQ tests. The INTP shines in this realm. Introverted Thinking is an "action-based" kind of logic. In the case of the INTP (as opposed to ISTP), the action may or may not occur in a physical place outside of the INTP's mind, but it is experienced with lightning speed in the current moment, based on current objects, using subjectively understood "actions" of reason.

The INTP is happiest in situations in which they can use logic regularly in an effort to uncover Truths about the Entity. Their ability to be effective in these efforts, as well as their ability to deal with people and feel comfortable with their place in the world, will be in large part dependent on the development of Extraverted Intuition. Although they have more simple needs from interpersonal relationships than most other types have, it's very important that they keep up their extraverted relationships, rather than going it alone. INTPs who isolate themselves rarely feel happy or successful. The INTP's feeling of success depends upon their opportunities to exercise their active mind, their opportunities to seek and find Truth, and the condition of their relationships and extraverted life.

Allowing Your INTP Strengths to Flourish

As an INTP, you have gifts that are specific to your personality type that aren't natural strengths for other types. By recognizing your special gifts and encouraging their growth and development, you will more readily see your place in the world, and be more content with your role.

Nearly all INTPs will recognize the following characteristics in themselves. They should embrace and nourish these strengths:

  • They have a natural ability to focus and get "into the zone" when working on a problem. They can absorb their minds completely with an issue, and work it through with amazing speed and accuracy. This ability makes them outstanding trouble-shooters. Since their logical abilities are dependent on their experiences, their abilities will increase with time. INTPs with experience are often seen as the "gurus" of their professions.
  • Their respect for precision in communication lends them the ability to accurately convey their ideas and discoveries in full.
  • They are usually quite intelligent and can grasp difficult concepts.
  • They are often jovial and good-natured, with a good sense of humor.
  • They are not overly demanding in personal relationships, and have simple daily needs. They are often easy and enjoyable to live with.

INTPs who have developed their Extraverted Intuition to the extent that they regularly take in information in an objective fashion, rather than strictly to feed Introverted Thinking, will enjoy these very special gifts:

  • They may be exceptionally intelligent, and make ground-breaking discoveries.
  • With a well-developed understanding of their environment and the ability to act very quickly, they may good athletes.
  • They're typically able to communicate their ideas more concisely than the average INTP without sacrificing accuracy.
  • They understand the benefits of close relationships, and understand how to support and enhance these relationships.
  • They see the value of principles that are not strictly logical
  • They have attractive and compelling personalities, and are well-liked and accepted by most people.

Potential Problem Areas

With any gift of strength, there is an associated weakness. Without "bad", there would be no "good". Without "difficult", there would be no "easy". We value our strengths, but we often curse and ignore our weaknesses. To grow as a person and get what we want out of life, we must not only capitalize upon our strengths, but also face our weaknesses and deal with them. That means taking a hard look at our personality type's potential problem areas.

Most of the weaker characteristics that are found in INTPs are due to their dominant function of Introverted Thinking overtaking the personality to the point that all of the other functions exist merely to serve the purposes of Introverted Thinking. In such cases, an INTP may show some or all of the following weaknesses in varying degrees:

  • The INTP gets "stuck in a rut" and only does those things that are known and comfortable to the INTP.
  • The INTP resists and rejects anything that doesn't support their own experiential understanding of the world. If they perceive that something is not logical, they reject it as unimportant.
  • They reject people who think or live differently than themselves.
  • They may be extremely caustic and insulting to others.
  • They may become isolated from society.
  • They may become overly paranoid about social organizations and institutions trying to control them.
  • They may unknowingly or uncaringly hurt people's feelings.
  • They may be completely unaware of how to express their inner world to others in a meaningful way.
  • They may be completely unaware of the type of communication that is often desireable and (to some degree) expected in an intimate relationship. If they are aware of the kinds of things that are appropriate to say and do to foster emotional bonding, they may be unable to appreciate the value of such actions. They may feel too vulnerable to express themselves in this fashion, and so reject the entire idea.
  • If pushed beyond their comfort level to form commitments or emotional bonds, they may reject a relationship entirely.
  • Under stress, they may show intense emotions that seem disproportionate to the situation.
  • They may not recognize basic social principles, such as appropriate dress and general behavior.

Explanation of Problems

Nearly all of the problematic characteristics described above can be attributed in various degrees to the common INTP problem of only taking in information that relates to or supports their own life experience. The INTP is driven to work with and understand his or her world by applying logic (an immediate, spatial, "fuzzy" logic) to the current situation. Although they generally seek to uncover truths, they don't always have a goal in mind to achieve from the logical process. The act or process of using logic is rewarding to the INTP. In their zeal for the satisfaction that comes from mastering a problem or situation, INTPs often selectively choose to put themselves in situations in which they have the opportunity to exercise these skills. That's certainly not a problem. Most personality types choose to do the things that they're best at most often. Such is the nature of capitalizing upon our strengths. The problem rears its ugly head when the goal of the INTP becomes to achieve their personal satisfaction at all costs.

It is healthy to choose your paths and goals in life so that they coincide with what you find rewarding, and what you're really good at. However, it sometimes happens that we take this approach a bit too far and sacrifice an accurate and objective understanding of the world for a more narrow vision that is easier and comfortable for us to deal with. The INTP affects this problem when they stop taking in information in a truly objective sense, and instead only take in information that can be worked through logically.

The dominant function of the INTP is Introverted Thinking. This function is supported closely and importantly by the auxiliary function of Extraverted Intuition. Extraverted Intuition perceives the world and sends information into the psyche, where it is processed by Introverted Thinking. An INTP who uses their Extraverted Intuition function in a diminished way is one who perceives information for the sole purpose of feeding Introverted Thinking, rather than taking everything in objectively. They are less concerned with understanding something for the sake of understanding than they are with feeding a piece of data into their Thinking function. Information that is not logical is dismissed as unimportant. They may reject information that is not consistent with their logical view of themselves, or with their understanding of a situation. Well-developed Extraverted Intuition perceives situations with depth and global understanding. It recognizes possibilities. Introverted Thinking makes conclusions. If an INTP's psyche is serving the purposes of Introverted Thinking above all else, then logical conclusions become more important than possibilities. In such cases, the INTP picks and chooses information from Extraverted Intuition that is interesting to them from the perspective of reaching logical conclusions. This keeps the INTP focused on reaching logical conclusions, but it prevents them from taking in any information that doesn't work well with their logical functioning. This includes things like love, emotions, social expectations, etc. These things are very important to many people in the world, and cannot be discarded from consideration if one hopes to really understand other people and the society that we live in. When the INTP dismisses the importance of data that can't be handled by their Thinking function, they are dismissing the importance of ideas that are central to half of the personality types' way of life (approximately half of the human population uses Feeling primarily for decision making). An INTP who wants to understand people and wants to recognize value in both logical and nonlogical ideas will strive to take in as much information as possible about the world for the purposes of improving their understanding,

The INTP who suffers from diminished use of Extraverted Intuition is likely to be very cutting and derisive towards people who express disagreement with the INTP. Without a sufficiently diverse perception of the Extraverted world, the INTP is unlikely to understand the principles of human interaction, and is unlikely to recognize the tremendous value of getting along with others and having good relationships.

For example, an INTP that I know (Bob) and his wife recently adopted a 7 year old girl (Kelly). The family lives in a foreign country and make it back to the U.S. for Christmas most years. Last year, Bob's relatives from the U.S. spoiled Kelly with lots of Christmas gifts to let her know that she was welcome and valued in their family. When Bob and his family left the country after Christmas, they did not bring any of Kelly's Christmas gifts with them. Bob's relatives were all extremely hurt and upset by this fact. When they confronted Bob about this, he claimed that they were wrong. He said that he had done the packing himself and was sure that nothing had been left behind. Bob's family has a large stack of clothes and toys that were meant for Kelly, but Bob insists to this day that they are wrong. He is not seeing the situation objectively with Extraverted Intuition. Rather, he dismisses the evidence because it doesn't support his own vision of himself or of that particular situation.

The INTP's inferior (fourth) function is Extraverted Feeling. This means that the INTP is not naturally in tune with how other people are feeling, or with social expectations. In fact, the INTP is likely to reject the importance of social rituals, rules, and expectations. This is a natural weak point for the INTP, which no doubt causes strife to the INTP and their love partner. This weakness can be overcome by developing their Extraverted Intuition to the point that they can perceive Feeling type expectations in the external world. They don't have to use Extraverted Feeling to understand how to act in situations. They can perceive the expected behavior from their Extraverted Intuition function. However, if they are restricting their incoming data to only those things that support their existing way of life, then they are not learning from Extraverted Intuition at all. They are not growing their understanding of social and intimate behaviors - rather, they are reducing the importance of this type of understanding to their own life. In these situations, INTPs shy away from very close personal relationships, and feel more vulnerable and less sure of themselves in situations that involve expressing their emotions. In extreme cases, they reject social interaction entirely. They tend to dislike everyone, and interact with the world with the primary purpose of getting rid of the offending person. Most INTPs will have bad days during which they don't much feel like dealing with people. The problem occurs when every day becomes a bad day.

Solutions

To grow as an individual, the INTP needs to focus on taking in as much information as possible through Extraverted Intuition. He or she needs to allow themself to get into situations that they aren't necessarily comfortable with, or that are different from the situations that they would normally choose in life. The INTP learns from experience, so the best way for the INTP to grow as a person is to open him or herself to new experiences. Be aware of the tendency to want to run out and do something "new" that is actually just a different opportunity to exercise a known skill. Your task, as a person interested in personal growth, is to understand the world in a truly objective fashion, and how you fit into the world, rather than how the world fits into your life.

The INTP should also pay close attention to their motivations when perceiving new information. Are they perceiving with an open mind or with an agenda? Are they seeking to truly understand something, or are they more concerned with turning the information into a logical conclusion? Seek first to understand, then to judge.

Living Happily in our World as an INTP

The problems that INTPs have with regards to fitting into our world are not usually related to platonic friendships. Usually, the INTP has trouble finding and maintaining a love relationship. The INTP usually has relatively simple needs and expectations from their mates, and they're surprised and confused to find that their mates have more complex demands. They don't understand their mate's needs, and may feel inadequate to meeting them. They get very uncomfortable with a situation as they perceive that they are expected to do something that it unknown to them. They back away from the relationship. They generally mask their fear and discomfort by reducing the importance of the relationship to themselves and others, or by putting the failure off onto the ridiculous expectations of their ex-mate. Outside of a relationship, they feel more unloved and unappreciated, but are afraid to commit to a relationship because they fear rejection and hurt.

Most INTPs experience relationship difficulties at some point in their lives. The INTP with a well-developed Extraverted Intuition will find relationships more satisfying and easier to deal with. Accordingly, we offer some general suggestions for dealing with relationships, as well as some advice that will help the INTP develop their Extraverted Intuition.

Specific suggestions:

  • Figure out how you feel about the other person. Do not falsely express love, or lead someone on with your ambivalence.
  • Don't expect yourself to be a master at the "touchy-feely" game. Be yourself, but remember that there is a basic assumption of human decency that must be adhered to in relationships. If you're not sure what that means, take special care to observe how people in "good" committed relationships behave towards each other, so that you can determine where the lines are drawn.
  • Pair yourself with an Extraverted Thinker (ESTJ or ENTJ) who is less likely to assume that the lack of feedback is the same thing as negative feedback.
  • Realize and accept that for you a satisfying relationship will start with the head, and move on towards the heart.
  • Expanding your world and experiences will expand your understanding of human expectations. Try to figure out the personality type of people that you know and encounter in your life.
  • Take care to notice what people look like in different social situations. Notice their hair, makeup (or lack thereof), the condition of their clothes, their shoes, their facial expressions. Don't compare others to your own appearance, simply take notice of it.
  • When having a conversation with a friend or relative, spend at least half of the time talking about them. Concentrate on really understanding where the person is coming from with their concerns. Ask questions.
  • Think of the people who are closest to you. Remember that they have their own lives going on. Try to visualize what that person is doing, and imagine what kinds of things that person is thinking about. Don't pass judgement, just think about it.

Ten Rules to Live By to Achieve INTP Success

  1. Feed Your Strengths! Realize your gift at mastering logical problems and situations, and give yourself plenty of opportunities to exercise your abilities. Much of your sense of well-being will come from these experiences.
  2. Face Your Weaknesses! We all have weaknesses. Recognizing your weaknesses for what they are (without beating yourself up) will give you the power to change your life for the better.
  3. Talk About Your Thoughts. Discussing your ideas and perceptions with others will help you to develop your Extraverted INtuition, and thus your understanding of the world. How well you use your auxiliary function is very important to your overall health and happiness.
  4. Listen to Everything Try not to dismiss anything immediately. Let it soak in, and then apply judgement. Try not to dismiss things that are alogical - they are not illogical.
  5. Be Aware of Others Understand that everyone has their own lives and their own perspectives. Everyone has something to offer. Try to identify people's personality type.
  6. Recognize Social Principles. Realize that our society functions around some basic social principles, and that our society would fail unless those principles are recognized and upheld. In a democracy, people vote. At a red stoplight, people stop. If people stopped voting because it wasn't important them, who would be in power? If people stopped stopping at red stop lights because it didn't fit into their plans, how could we drive safely? Your priorities and plans are important, but you must recognize that the external world's agenda is also important. Don't dismiss the importance of principles that don't affect your life directly.
  7. Get Out of Your Comfort Zone Understand that the only way to grow is to get outside of your comfort zone. If you're uncomfortable with an idea or situation because you're not sure how to act, that's good! That's an opportunity for growth.
  8. Identify and Express Your Feelings You may have a hard time understanding how you feel about someone. It's important that you do figure this out. Don't lead someone on with your ambivalence. If you determine that you value the person, tell them so every time you think of it. This is the best way to make them feel secure in your affections, and so to promote a long-lasting relationship.
  9. Be Accountable for Yourself Remember that no one has more control over your life than you have. Don't be a victim.
  10. Assume the Best. Don't distress yourself with fear and dark expectations. Remember that a positive attitude often creates positive situations.

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DAMN, it's all true -_-

Selasa, Juni 02, 2009

apatis

Hei, peeps, I'm back. Back to the blogger scene after long gone.
Where have I gone? Sleeping. Lol.
Well, it's part right cos I do now sleep more than before. When I'm not with my (office) laptop, I'm busy with my cell, listening a couple of tune and sleep. Sleepin' like a baby. Something to be grateful at cos I'm actually taking good care of my body *finally*. =]

Hari Jumat/Sabtu kemaren sekitar akhir Mei, gw berbincang malam dengan Saudari Tika yang macho dan gentlenya melebihi kebanyakan cowo yang gw kenal dan kita pun saling berjanji untuk melanglang buana ke acara Gelar Jepang UI nanti tanggal 14 Juni 2009 bersama teman-teman SMA-nya dia meskipun gw juga dah niat mau nyeret beberapa anak Depok dan Selatan kek Thiwy, Mida, Ayu, dst ke acara ini seperti yang juga kita lakukan tahun lalu meskipun terselang Quidditch. Tch. Untung kita dah ga masuk ke dalam tim meskipun ga tau juga sih, Mida. *rollingeyes*

Hasil perbincangan tengah malam yang akhir-akhir ini kita sering lakukan berdua itu ga cuma menghasilkan janji untuk saling ketemuan di Depok ntar tapi juga beberapa hal, chat yang biasa gw omongin cuma sama beberapa orang aja di NetWorld, tentang... apa ya? Mengupas dan menguliti kepribadian dan hal-hal di sekitar kita deh. It was fun karena gw emang udah jarang sekarang ngobrolin tentang itu karena lawan bicara gw pada sibuk melakukan hal-hal yang lain-lain, mereka terlalu eksis di NW atau RW untuk sempet ngobrol sama gw padahal gw sendiri juga jarang menghubungi/dihubungi by phone dan jarang pula onlen Y!M. ROFL! Yeah, it's kinda like--not that they're hard to reach, it is me whose not doing any effort to reach them. =] Enjoying my loneliness a little too much? =]

Well, yeah, at the end of the chat, we had one final conclusion : bahwa saya apatis.

Nah, nah... Apatis itu apa? Saya berusaha browsing dan menemukan ini :

Apatisme adalah kata serapan dari Bahasa Inggris, yaitu apathy. Kata tersebut diadaptasi dari Bahasa Yunani, yaitu apathes yang secara harfiah berarti tanpa perasaan. Sedangkan menurut AS Hornby dalam Oxford Advanced Learner’s Dictionary of Current English: apathy is an absence of simpathy or interest. Dari definisi-definisi di atas, maka dapat ditarik satu benang merah definisi apatisme, yaitu hilangnya simpati, ketertarikan, dan antusiasme terhadap suatu objek.

Intinya : Tidak pedulian atau cuek tahap akut.

Lol.

Wow. I'm speechless.