...Like you only want what is not there in front of your eyes? I mean, just this morning, my dad making me a delicious fried banana and I didn't eat it. Not that I don't want it, I mean I can smell the sweet scent of the mouth watering fried banana, but I didn't feel like eating. I know my dad would be disappointed every time I don't eat his cooking, I know I would if the person that I personally cook for don't eat my cooking.
Its just that... I don't want it. I don't feel like eating it. I feel like eating something that isn't there like bread or cereal not that warm, delicious, mouth watering fried banana! And it happens all the time! I always want something that isn't there! Usually when I skip delicious snacks in my house, I come looking for it when they're gone and finish. And again, this happens all the time!
I'm a little terrified if this thing would go on in my life in a different kind of subject. No longer food, but... Future spouse, perhaps? What if... I ignore this wonderful person in front of me, wanting for something more and isn't there, looking for some weakness and then come back and looking at him with a different perspective... Just right when he's already gone!
God, I feel so shitnetron...