Rabu, Maret 30, 2011

i prefer..

I prefer texts like:
"Get something to eat. Its lunch time. :*"
Rather than:
"Dah makan siang? Jangan telat makan ya, tar sakit."

Or...

"Sweet dream! I'll meet u there.."
Rather than:
"Dah tidur? Met istirahat ya. :-)"

And..

"Don't miss praying, I wanna see u in heaven. :-)"
Rather than (and i totally hate it):
"Udah sholat?"

Jangan cek2 gw, gw berterimakasih atas perhatian kalian semua tapi kalian belum jadi pacar saya, weeek! :P

Bye-bye March...

So I'm living my life, not online, but my real life. Its fun, really, watching people, seeing how they act, what they think, how they live their life. I found it really refreshing.

So, that's something new. Anyway, I'm no longer broke but I'm still not fully recovered. Hopefully next month things would start to looking out for me. I'm still hoping for a better future but I can't say that I'm not enjoying this moment.

Safir Senduk tweets : Galau biasanya berbanding lurus dengan kondisi keuangan.

I can't say that's not true. Its perfect to describe how I am right now. I'm not depressed anymore. I have money in my pocket! Yeay! Lets celebrate by watching youtube for 3 hours! Ooohh yeaaahhh~~

April, here I come!

Kamis, Maret 24, 2011

Miss W (Whiner)

Hey, let me share you guys about what happen with me today.

I cried.

Not once, twice.

Keren ya? :D

Jadi ceritanya gw sedang merefleksi diri (mengasihani diri.red) dan gw menemukan bahwa hidup gw sangatlah menyedihkan (saat ini). Dalam keadaan super bokek, tekanan kanan kiri, suasana kantor yang ga mendukung, no one to talk to (ya sebenernya gw bersyukur Cubung sms pas gw emang pengen curhat, turns out, its his birthday today! Congratz, man!) dan keluarga yang menurut gw kurang suportif juga bikin nambah tekanan di pundak gw yang udah berat penuh beban.

And so, I let all my pressure and stress out with the only way I know how, crying. If I hold a cigarette in my hand at that time, I'll smoke my stress out. But I didn't have one and too broke to buy one. Feels so miserable and really need someone to talk to (at 1 AM). When I cried the second time, it was noon and I cried in the toilet. A romantic place to cry. Really, I was really stressed out. All those burden are in my shoulder and I have no one to share my burden with.

I'm fine right now. I had a few laughs and I'm meeting a friend from work and hoping to get a few laughs as well. Its funny sometimes I think the people who are the furthest away from me are usually the closest friend I got.

Rabu, Maret 23, 2011

Hey World

Hey, I've been MIA for a few days but not a few month yet so no worries!

Lagi males nulis Day-Day-an dan berhubung lagi menghitung mundur menit2 sampe waktunya pulang sekolah kantor jadi sekarang ngeblog dulu.

Ngomongin apa ya? Hmm.. Akhir-akhir ini gw terobsesi sama 2 hal, yang satu ga usah dibahas karena saking obviousnya, yang satu lagi itu Miss Ussy. Gila ya gw baca blog entrynya yang terbaru setelah kosong BERTAHUN-TAHUN *lebai* bikin gw geregetan! Gw makin penasaran aja sama eneng yang satu ini. Maksud gw, kok ada ya orang yang kek dia ini? Pengen belek otaknya dan liat apa aja sih isinya? :))

Yah, gw dah ada rencana buat main ke Malang dan ketemuan sama si eneng yang satu ini di bulan Juli, mudah2an jadi and I really can't wait! >.<
Katanya Cubung sih perjalanan sejauh itu ke Malang buat ketemu sama Miss Ussy ini sangat worth it, so I'm really getting more and more curious! :p

Another update, Money is still far away, out of sight. I'm sure it will come... eventually. I shouldn't worry about it too much and promise to myself that I'll try and be diligent to save some of my money for crisis times like this.

Today's blessing : DPA hampir selesai dan gw bisa lunch sambil ngobrol panjang lebar sama teh Cicik. :)

Kamis, Maret 17, 2011

Day 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush

Oh, this is too much! My ex-boyfriend?

Umm, I have quite a few ex-bf and they're all nice and all, but the fact that I'm single only mean 1 thing, I'm not that into them. Any of them. Its my fault and I take the resposibility fully.

I had a great time with them and I hope they had a great time with me too. I can't hope too high about their feelings about me cos I always make some kind of wall between me and them. I can't get too close with them for some reason and I feel bad about it.

Well, there's not much to say about this...

Rabu, Maret 16, 2011

Day 6 — A stranger


I don't really get what this means... A stranger?

I met with a lot of strangers in my life. I met them via internet. I have a lot of strangers listed as my 'friends' on facebook *proud* #apeu.

I met a lot of strangers from daredarou, my first online community forum. I like the people that I met there. They're all so nice and welcoming to me. I go to a lot of Japanese events in Jakarta, get to know how to get around cos of it and I know more about Japanese culture than I need or wanted to know. Lol. Well, the most precious things I got from surfing the net is, I get to talk with peculiar and unusual people. Interesting people. And if I'm lucky, I get to meet them in person and chat even more.

Its funny that in person, I'm very protective about this whole stranger thing. It feels more safe and nice to talk to strangers at a chat room or a community forum on the internet, rather than actually meeting with strangers. I don't really talk to strangers, especially those who I meet on the bus, or train. My friend, Cubs, like to talk to strangers he met on trains or bus but than again, he's a guy. I'm a girl. I can't talk to strangers, what if the person I talk to is a con artist and they drug me and took all my money, or worst, kidnap me and... eww just imagining it make me feel chill on my spine.

My parents always make sure when I was a kid that I don't talk to strangers. Maybe that's why I don't even know who live right next door *gubrak*.

But I learn that not all strangers are bad, if you get to know them, these strangers can be a friend. A dear friend. Or my be a soulmate? Who knows?

Before we becomes friends, couples, aren't we all just strangers to each others?

Senin, Maret 14, 2011

Day 5 — Your dreams


Now here's the hard part... I'm proud to say that I have no dream. Wait, that sounds so pathetic...

The truth is, I had a vague image of someone to become when I was little. I wanna be just like my mom. She work at the prestigious Sudirman Street, wearing fancy professional outfits, working in an aircon room with foreigner as her boss. I thought it was so cool, all of the above. That's why I wanna be just like my mom, a carrier woman, a business woman, a young professional. That's so cool in my head that I even started reading 'Femina' magazine since very young (well, my mom subscribe to it, so yeah I read it).

Now that I think about it, my dream is so plain. LOL! And if you look at it from a certain angle, I got my dream already. I'm now working as a PNS, a carrier woman, just like I always wanted. So now that I achieve my dream, the normal thing to do, I should get a new dream, right?

The problem with that is, I don't have any dreams. I mean, I just live life day by day with this so epicly boring feeling in my heart. I also wanted to abroad, traveling around the world (alone or with friends) and I'm achieving that too, little by little. I went to Singapore last year and I'm planning to go to China next year, both with dear friends. So that dream is coming true too, and now, I need another long term dream. My short term dream right now is to have a cool android smart phone so I can chat, blog and browsing with ease. I prefer netting by phone for some reason...

Oh! I do want to move to a better place than where I live right now, and I still want a fine library on my house someday even though I don't read that much anymore (I still need a place for my books, tho). So, that's my dream... for now.

I wanna have a sweet dream, a very sweet dream. I will. Someday.

Kamis, Maret 10, 2011

Day 4 — Your sibling (or closest relative)

Day 4! Yeay! Berhubung internet kantor gw tumben jalan, jadi gw memutuskan untuk blogwalking lalu keingetan sama blog gw sendiri yang udah bersarang laba-laba. :D So here I am, blogging. Wasting my time since I have some spare time after NOT being a BP at my office anymore (YEAY!).

So day 4 is about my sibling... I have 2 sibling but I feel like I only have 1. My little sister, Natasha Mirza Putri. 


So yeah, she's all I got. I grew up with her and she's a little spoiled brat if you ask me. Its my fault for spoiling her in the first place, anyway... so, I got no one to blame. She's stronger than me and she's really mature in her own way. I learn how to be confident because of her. When I was still a teenager, I don't have any confident what so ever, and my sister.. well, she's just the way she is now: super confident! So I learn to except myself and to say to myself: hey, you're pretty, you're smart, you deserve more than what you have now! And so I did and this is how I become. I've come a long way since my teens.

My older sister name is Ayu Miranti. She's 2 years older than me, and my little sister is 2 years younger than me. We grew up in separate places so we're not really that close. But you can always see that we're related, seeing that if would be standing together, you could tell that we look so much alike.







Well... that's my sibling. Love 'em! :D

Selasa, Maret 08, 2011

Day 3— Your parents

My parents are... hmmm.. how do you say this?

My beginning?

There's a beginning and there's an end. My story of life started with my parents. They're the first people I met (except for the doctors who help delivered me) and the first people who love me.

I can assure you that I don't have a normal, happy childhood like what the civil standard of a normal, happy childhood, but I survive, my sister also survive and I think the main reason we both survive is because my parents keep being together. They don't split up and left us in a relatives house, living a gloom life. No, they hang on and stay together, keeping the family intact. Sometimes I just can't stand it and wish they'd just split up already and move on... But for some reason, they still hang in there, through everything and all...for their children: me and my sister.

I thank them for their judgment to keep the family together cos it made me stronger. I thank them for keeping me by their side even though I know they can't afford it cos it made me feel that I have to take care of them as they did to me.  I thank them for putting my education first, which made me smarter than my other snob rich relatives. I thank them for their trust on me, it made me the independent woman I am today.

I'm sorry I'm not married yet and haven't give you the grandchild you want, mom, dad. But I am who I am today cos of you. So I thank you. :)

Jumat, Maret 04, 2011

Day 2 — Your Crush

Ini bukan Day 2 tapi yaudahlah ya... skip2 aja.. hahah maklum arteiss! Sibuk euy! Sibuk dikejar2 bos suruh bikin anggaran! Nasib bener jadi satu2nya di kantor yang bisa make komputer lancar.. -__-

Anyway, Day 2 is about my crush.. Maksudnya current crush nih? Gw ga ada klo current crush. Ga punya kecengan/gebetan/apaanlah itu istilahnya jaman sekarang... Intinya mah gw jomblo tanpa ada calon pacar berkualitas di dekat gw. Klo pun ada biasanya mereka ga available alias taken. Takennya ga nanggung2, yang deketin gw pasti dah pada married semua, yang gw suka pas dah married semua, gw sampe ngomongin itu sama temen kantor gw klo misalnya cowok itu setelah married, malah makin charming! I don't know why but they just are!

Right now, I have no crush... but I'm hoping to find one real soon! Its boring to be single and living in a separate city from your friends. I have no one to talk to during the weekend and its sooooo boring!

Selasa, Maret 01, 2011

Day 1 — Your Best Friend

I don't have a lot of best friend. Probably cos I can't really be a best friend from the first place. I don't really like to spend my time with people who I have no interest with, I don't really listen to stories that is not engage my interest, I don't really change when people around me change. The other day, I met my high school friend and she's married with a child. I think its great for her, but on the other hand, I'm not married, I don't have kids, I don't work at the same office as her, thus, I'm not really interested in keeping in touch with her (though, I got her facebook address--of course). I'm not jealous, FYI. I feel happy for her. We just don't have a lot in common whether as adults or back then when we were still in our teens.

Speaking of best friends, I have a couple of best friends. Just a few but I'm so lucky to find them and call them my best friend. I think I'll stay in touch with them even if they got married with kids and I'm still single. I think they'll still be as cool even if we don't live in the same background anymore.

Natasha Mirza Putri, Nayuningtias, Yunita Kurniati, Mida Nopitasari, Septi Handayani

They're so cool and have the same 'vibe' with me. Even though we don't always share the same opinions about things, we have the same perspective of things that make us have more thing in common than our differences.

Another people who I consider my best friend is Lian, Cubung, dan Sigi.

I don't know if they consider me as one of their best friend, but I certainly am. Like what I always said, it doesn't matter what you think, its what I think that matters. I consider them as one of my best friends but its okay if they don't consider me as one of theirs. Its fine. My feelings is all that matter. They're so nice to me anyway. :)

Anyway, to oknum C, I know you're going to rough path right now. Maybe you feel like you're going back to square zero at this point in your life. There's nothing I can do about it, I can't even text you to show my support cos apparently my text isn't delivered, but I hope you read this and know that as time goes by, as you get more time to think, to settle your emotions, I am here to be your friend and watch you as you go and be an adult. :) My last message: don't die young!

Anyway, end of day 1! See you on day 2. :D

challenge

So i went blogwalking the other day and i found this amusing blog that belong to @missviona whom i follow on twitter and i really admire her for her words. She have the most amazing words (and brain if I may add). There's a challenge there and I'd like to make it myself. She took the challenge from @ijotoska blog (which is as amazing as Viona's blog).

The challenge is :

Day 1 — Your Best Friend
Day 2 — Your Crush
Day 3— Your parents
Day 4 — Your sibling (or closest relative)
Day 5 — Your dreams
Day 6 — A stranger
Day 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush
Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend
Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet
Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to
Day 11 — A Deceased person you wish you could talk to
Day 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain
Day 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you
Day 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from
Day 15 — The person you miss the most
Day 16 — Someone that’s not in your state/country
Day 17 — Someone from your childhood
Day 18 — The person that you wish you could be
Day 19 — Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad
Day 20 — The one that broke your heart the hardest
Day 21 — Someone you judged by their first impression
Day 22 — Someone you want to give a second chance to
Day 23 — The last person you kissed
Day 24 — The person that gave you your favorite memory
Day 25 — The person you know that is going through the worst of times
Day 26 — The last person you made a pinky promise to
Day 27 — The friendliest person you knew for only one day
Day 28 — Someone that changed your life
Day 29 — The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to
Day 30 — Your reflection in the mirror

So... This would be fun! :D